I was with my ex bf for almost two years. He was an AMAZING GUY! I wasn’t use to this kind of person n mentally wasn’t there all the time bc I was going through a divorce. I was hurtful at times bc I had a wall up. He was extremely hurt too n he ADORED ME. We had an AMAZING connection! I was going through SO MUCH that I moved with the intentions of him following (to a diff state). But at first I had in my head I was going regardless bc I needed to do it for me. He was on board with me going but I knew deep down he didn’t want me to. He was CRUSHED but said he was going to move with me in time. I left and we were still strong. I was staying with This girl I knew from years ago from school....Everything happened soooo fast and smoothly so I thgt that must be a sign. Run with it. But with the intentions he was coming within a year. He was DEVASTATED I left! Crushed. That's an understatement.

I confided the girl I was staying with bout a few things ...that he already was aware of...but she went back and told him but twisted it and manipulated it! Needless to say he believed her and he ran with it.

I came home for him. I literally picked up n moved right back but at that point he said it was too late. Was pushing me away. I tried to fight n fight to keep it going. I became desperate n showed a very needy side which disgusted him.

Made it very clear he didn’t want me in his life anymore and to go away.

I’ve tried thinking positive but with everything that has transpired it doesn’t sound like he would come around which makes me not believe!! So when I try to manifest I think of how he acted, what was said and how he acts when I see him now (at the gym). He completely ignores me. At one point he did say we could start off on a friendly level but next day back to ignoring me. With that being said, I have a VERY HARD TIME believing things would change! I’m heartbroken depressed and lost. I love him with all my heart and know we weren’t suppose to end like this! Please help!

I also have A LOT of what ifs! “what if he’s with someone?!” “what if he’s interested in someone?” “What if he doesn’t even love me anymore”! My fear is that I can’t control his feelings!

Last edited by Jennyfers24 (1/26/2018 9:13 pm)