Nothing is impossible wrote:

I understand what you mean. It all has to do with my believes right? Is it like what you say what i make about it. If i  will be worrying it will be not fine. If i think it will take long then that is what i will get. But if i feel happy and live in that moment as if i already have it that all will be fine. 

Its true, i was not feeling good when it all happend. And the crazyest thing me and my sp were good and doing fine. We had even talked about our little problem that we had. But i kept thinking in my mind what if he backs up, what if he leaves. And exactly what i was worried about happend. I was thinking maybe the signs were from God. I ask God if im on my way show me a this or that and i see it. I have to learn more about living in the moment. I did look at your series and still have to do it again. Its all new for me. 

Your consciousness is God. There is no outside god to turn to. You create it all yourself.