Everything in the universe is you pushed out. Your inner fears reflect out to you when you give it enough energy. In your case, you were worried about him leaving you due to your inner fears, and it happened. You were worried he would leave for someone else - and it happened. Don't feel stupid because online relationships are 100% real. They're no different than an "IRL relationship". You're still talking to a real person; it's just behind a computer screen instead of talking to them face-to-face.

One thing I would suggest is to start loving yourself unconditionally. Love yourself for your fears, your strengths, and everything else. If you don't love yourself then no relationship will ever work because you're going to continue thinking you're not worthy enough, that your lover will leave you, and then it manifests. You want to feel loved when you're alone, and you want to feel loved when you're with someone else.

Meditation can also help relax your mind which can help reduce the anxious thoughts you have. It won't completely eliminate your anxiety but with enough meditation it'll reduce your anxiety to a point where it doesn't effect you in your daily life.

LOALovers7777 wrote:

Everything in the universe is you pushed out. Your inner fears reflect out to you when you give it enough energy. In your case, you were worried about him leaving you due to your inner fears, and it happened. You were worried he would leave for someone else - and it happened. Don't feel stupid because online relationships are 100% real. They're no different than an "IRL relationship". You're still talking to a real person; it's just behind a computer screen instead of talking to them face-to-face.

One thing I would suggest is to start loving yourself unconditionally. Love yourself for your fears, your strengths, and everything else. If you don't love yourself then no relationship will ever work because you're going to continue thinking you're not worthy enough, that your lover will leave you, and then it manifests. You want to feel loved when you're alone, and you want to feel loved when you're with someone else.

Meditation can also help relax your mind which can help reduce the anxious thoughts you have. It won't completely eliminate your anxiety but with enough meditation it'll reduce your anxiety to a point where it doesn't effect you in your daily life.

Dear LOALovers7777, I want to thank you for taking the time and effort to read and reply to my story.
When I wrote this I was clearly feeling very emotional. I have been doing better since then. I’m focussing on myself and yes I’m also doing meditations and find they really do help me. I realize I need to consistently work on this belief that there is always someone better than me and that I am not enough. I AM enough. Deep down I know I am. I am a very kind and loving person and there is no reason why anyone wouldn’t like me or think I wasn’t good enough. The bad things I sometimes think or say to myself are things that I would NEVER say to someone else. So why would I do it to myself.. that makes no sense. I am not lower than others, I am equal. I know this, I just really need to repeat this to myself.

As for the guy, I know my feelings are very real and what others say doesn’t matter. But thank you for reassuring me that I’m not stupid for this. :D
I know he is trying to fight his feelings for me, there is really no other explanation as to why he blocked me. I wasn’t stalking or harassing or whatever.
Funny thing is that I actually thought that same day about blocking him, maybe the universe did it for me haha.
It’s good to really have some time to myself now so I can work on me. I know he already is mine.
When I feel like it, I send him love and it feels really good. I can feel him close. I feel like the love I send to him also helps me to feel loved by myself if that makes sense. Anyway, this post is getting long again haha. Again, thank you for your time. I really appreciate it!

Much love from me.

PrettyFlamingo wrote:

I don't think anyone is accusing you of being stupid, Veela. My post was meant to be more general than specific. 

Thanks for your reply, PrettyFlamingo!

I didn’t see your post before I wrote that so that was certainly not meant at you, but also in general haha.
I know what you mean by not really knowing the person and sure I have thought about that too that maybe my feelings will be different when I meet him. I do doubt that however haha, but I will only know for certain when I meet him ofcourse.

Love from me!

In your opinion. This is a forum for questions and answers and people will get a variety of answers, some of which won't be liked. I personally feel chatting on line with a "romantic" vibe has to be treated with caution until you know that person properly. People can and do fake it and then vanish when things heat up leaving the other person confused and asking themselves what they did wrong.

Also, 10 online chats are not the same as 10 meetings between people. It's common sense.

My remarks are not unintelligent and not insensitive, which is the definition of crass. More like measured caution, I'd say.

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You don't need to worry why I am still here, but I am not here to bicker, and I am not going to start now. 

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