Hi everyone, I need to get my story out to vent and get some advice.

I was with someone for about 3 months, and during that time I fell deeply in love with him.  I know it wasn't very long, but I fell hard for this guy.  He loved me too.  A couple of times during our relationship he tried to walk away saying he wasn't ready for a relationship, that his last gf 'screwed' him up..that he still had a guard up and couldn't let me in, and also said he was getting pulled in all directions at work, with family etc, and had nothing left to give me, that I deserved better.

We worked through those two times, but then almost two months ago he broke it off for good, with all of the above reasons.  I was/am devastated.  I tried at the beginning to 'beg' for us to work through it, but he was adamant that he needs time to himself to figure things out etc.  A couple of times since I've tried to talk to him about it, but it was the same conversation.

The last couple of times we hung out, I initiated, and we hung out.  One of the times we did sleep together, and he was saying things like he loves me, that we should do this and this together this winter...etc.  But as soon as I left, I barely heard from him.  When we are hanging out, it's good, but when we are apart, I don't really ever hear from him.  

I saw him last week and we hung out again for a few hours.  I tried to keep my distance to not 'throw' myself at him.  It seemed to have work a little bit because at the end he said he wanted to cuddle me the whole time...said we would hang out next weekend (this weekend), and would text during the week.

That was last Sunday.  I decided to let go and said to myself what will be, will be.  I wasn't expecting to really hear from him, but on Tuesday he sent me a text saying 'Hope your week is starting off well '.  I sent one response, and then nothing the rest of the week.  This morning he sent me a text saying good morning, asked how my week was, and asked what I was up to.  I responded and asked what he was up to, and didn't get a response.  So a few hours later I sent another one saying Im home and hes welcome to come by to visit.  Nothing for a couple hours again.  I started to panic so I tried calling him with no answer.

About half hour later I got a text from him saying he was just dealing with some issues at work, and that he was just going to lay low tonight and get some things done.  Again, I panicked, and asked if I could just come by to say hi and wouldn't stay long.  He asked if tomorrow after work would be ok, and that he could stop by my place.  He said he was just feeling anti social.

I tried to keep my composure and just said yes of course, and hoped he had a good night.  Then he sent me a long text about his day, what happened, said that he hoped I had a good night too and would be in touch tomorrow.

So the last couple of weeks I have been trying to put LOA into 'action'...I've been doing so many self love meditations, exercising, trying to be good to myself.  I was doing good..and the last couple text I got from him, were on his own accord...something that hasn't happened in a while, so I believe it can work.

I know that he is the one for me, but I'm struggling between believing LOA will work for me...and if I should just move on because sometimes I feel like he's not into me anymore.

And I know all of the above are my beliefs and is working against me with LOA.

I just don't know what to do.  I thought it was working, and then when I didn't hear from him for hours today, my anxiety crept up on me full force, and I spiraled. 

Some of my friends tell me I just need to talk to him, and see how he's feeling, and tell him I can't see him until he figures out what he wants.  Which, I can see, but when putting LOA into practice, they say you 'act' or believe that yhou don't need that person, and not to act needy, or talk about emotions and let them come to you.

I'm just confused with all of the information out there and not sure what steps to take, as I am truly in love with this person, and don't want to be with anyone else. 

Any advice would really help.

Thanks guys!!