LearningToDetach wrote:

I've read some posts and articles.. And I'm wondering if I am manifesting him further out of my life than back into my life? Is it possible?

I'm feeling ok more or less 60-70% of the day. Some days I feel 90%... But every day i would get negative thoughts.

What if he's seeing someone?
What if i'm too late?
What if it's been too long since we last talked? We were talking for 10 months before i went into NC and it's 4 months now.... I know time shouldn't matter but it does seems significant. (I kept going because even though we have not talked, he has been viewing all my stories. But today i have blocked him from viewing the stories because i don't want to be checking for his name so often...)

All sorts of what ifs. And it's the worst right before sleep and when I wake up.

I was falling asleep  half an hour ago when suddenly all negative thoughts came in. I wanted to post this earlier this morning but I put it off.

Can the universe get it wrong because of how i feel?

The universe always delivers  what you are vibrating. Now I am not you I cannot confirm you are feeling anything other then positive 60% of the time. But be honest with yourself are you? to me the questions you asked about him being with someone else etc seem like they are more prominent and that there is more emotion behind them. You need to focus on feeling good and that doesn't have to do with him. What do you enjoy doing etc? Focusing on feeling good doesn't mean you have to think positive thoughts about them like they are coming back etc. the universe knows what you want if you want them back then it knows but if you are vibrating negative more then positive then it picks up on the prominent energy. Now no one is perfect but it's recovery and how you deal with the negative thoughts that matter . When they say you need at 51% of positive to outweigh the negative they are right but you have to know you are thinking more positive . Also keep in mind this could be an echo of past negativity the universe doesn't instantly deliver. Sure people can change things quick but you have to be vibrating at a high frequency without any negative thoughts. Don't stress though just focus on you know the universe delivers and focus on feeling good. When you feel good for any reason everything falls into place the people, money, job etc. sometimes you need to just focus on other things that make you feel good. When I felt miserable a month ago I started focusing on just feeling good cause that is what I wanted. I felt hopeless before. Well when I started doing that I felt so much better and things in my life started to turn around. You see when I felt miserable I was frustrated because I thought the law didn't work I thought I was being more positive then negative. I wasn't I was being needy and pretending I was being positive so I could get a text etc .it wasn't til I was miserable and saying the law didn't work that I really asked myself was I being positive and stuff was I being not needy? Well I clearly was getting what I was projecting which was desperatation and neediness so even if you feel your positive check in and be honest with yourself cause I thought I was and I was lying to myself which is why I got where I was. Hope this helps

Last edited by Selfloveiskey (9/25/2017 10:35 am)