So, apart of me believes in the law, apart of me does not. I have built up so much negative thoughts to the point that when I found out about the law, my negative thoughts just see is bologna. That I cannot fix anything between my love and I even though it is pretty obvious that the negative energy being thrown around is why nothing is improving. My mind says that even if I were to clear the baggage, nothing will happen, I can do everything to be happy, but nothing will change.

Yet he and I feel the congestion and episodes around the same time and still I cannot believe that can change. I hate having to battle through this, wishing the part of me that does believe will regain its power for we both share energy and can feel things at the same time. But it is not motivating me to drive out there to do something about it because we are both feeling this energy. My depression makes me not want to do anything, my anxiety holds me back from following my heart.