I began talking to this incredible man. I freaked out when he was so sweet. I've been hurt a lot and couldn't shake the irrational fear that he'd break my heart for shits and giggles. I spent a lot of time doing self love and was sure I was ready to date. What I wasn't ready for was this kind of connection. The last time I felt this (the ONLY time I felt it), the man literally told me he was using me to feed his ego and the months of talking about marriage and kids was bullshit. It came flooding back and I didn't expect it.

I sent three messages over three days about a week and a half ago. He didn't respond. He didn't say "don't talk to me". He simply didn't respond. I removed him from my Facebook contacts so it would send as a message request now.

I had a chi healing session yesterday. She told me the RS is hitting him and it's making him moody. She said he definitely has he desire to reconcile, but he's one of those people who would rather not talk to someone ever again than fight or argue. She said it's still there and that he's coming back.

I had a reading today. Mostly I wanted to know about this path I'm taking with my career, but I asked her about him. She said he for sure wants me, but he feels he did something wrong. She suggested reaching out to him and clearing up what happened. I apologized before, but I never told him that I'd been hurt and that the way he made me feel scared me. She said to put it out there and let him know that I definitely see something long term with him.

Instead of waiting out the energy work, I did what my reader told me. She's never been wrong before. I mean, she's crazy on the money so I trust it. I did reach out. I made it clear about what happened and how he makes me feel (my chi healer told me it is important to him to make me feel good). The psychic told me he'd take a few days to respond. It's been two hours and I'm still stuck on sent. Meaning he read it, but didn't accept the message. I felt it when he read it about an hour later. I wasn't thinking about it, but I felt the flood of energy like he was thinking of me.

So with this I'm calling it quits. I know the remote seduction works. I've seen it work. I've manifested many relationships and exes back. I feel like either I have too much resistance or I've lost my touch. I just give up. It's easier that way just totally focus on anything else.

*sigh*