80saeaak wrote:

I apologize. I genuinely didn't realize she was playing you. She seems like she's getting her ego stroked by the attention. She knew she was going to have an arranged marriage yet continued to date outside of what/who her parents would choose for her. Not only that, she's getting way too deep. She's blocked you, but is still messaging you? That's a mind game there. This seems very melodramatic for the sake of dramatics. Don't feed her ego. I'd just stop now. This one is aiming to hurt you.

Not at all. You've got it all wrong. I had to... text her... a lot, telling her I needed closure for her to talk to me. I know she genuinely likes me. 

She just... can't do it. And it's really really hard for her not to message me. 

Doesn't change the fact that I'm hurt though. 

YesIWILL wrote:

I don't need you to.... but please believe me. I can tell. She's really hurt right now, too.

But still. It's an ending. I don't like endings.

It's quite early in the morning where I am, so if my reply makes zero sense, my bad. Just had the urge to check this site. 

I know the feeling when it comes to fearing the end, it's probably this fear that makes relationships hard to maintain for you. I was always afraid of my happiness going because I'd made the person the point of my happiness. It took a lot of time and if you look back to my earlier posts there, my god was I miserable. 

I won't pretend I'm super happy now and I still have days where I'm terrified of the idea of being with anybody but at the end of the day, I know now that if I have to be on my own, great. I like me enough. 

Just remember that you are enough and are absolutely worthy of love. There's someone out there who'd love to be with a person like you, that's what keeps me going.  

 

Growth, a process indeed. Many of us aren't where we want to be yet but thanks to these resources we aren't where we were!

Think of this as fine tuning.

It is just hard coping with having someone so close then pull out of your life. 

I'm trying so hartd to deal with this. Any tips? I'm ghaving such a rough time. Feel really alone.

Avaelle wrote:

I know. People really shouldn't get onto those dating apps if they aren't ready to date. I can't express that enough. I wish I knew what to say to help the disappoint ment pass. Just know that I understand how you feel.

Thanks Avaelle. As always I realky appreeaicete it. 


I juost hoppe that despitoe the fact that she sasdi she'd won't contact me againl.... I hoppe she'll realgch out to me. I ficuking hate this.