I was watching YouTube videos and decided to re-watch a video called "Manifesting a Specific Person Is Really About YOU" by illuminatingjoy. I've watched this video several times before, but I must be in a receiving mode because it completely resonated with me.

This entire time I've been feeling better not only because of self love, appreciation/gratitude, viewing all circumstances with ease, but also because I strongly believed that he (my love) was going to do something different (miss me, think about me, text me, call me, profess his love for me, etc). When in reality I need to change that part of the equation and feel better because I don't need him to do any of those things. Others may have come to this conclusion already, but for me it's mind blowing. I've been going at this all wrong.

Bottom line: what I truly want is to be desired by someone that I desire (and I really desire my love). I've identified what that looks like to me and the feelings associated with it. That is what I'll only focus on from now on.