Hello, 
 I am asking for help/advice from anyone. 
My love and I were together for almost two years but during the relationship, I let my own insecurities get the better of me and I began to pull away from the relationship. I am the kind of girl who tends to be closer friends with guys rather than girls, so I began to hang out with these friends often. I would ask my love if he minded and I would tell him where I was going and with whom out of respect for how he might feel. He would always say he was okay with it so I would go. After a few months I grew close to one of, well who I thought was one of my friends. Well after I noticed how close he was getting I pulled away and focused back on my relationship with my love. Not long after that, some fake person on a fake facebook account decided to message my love and his mother saying that I was cheating on my love with that guy, who now was in a relationship himself. My love believes me that I did nothing but his mother did not even bother to ask me my side before banning me from her home. My love and his mother are quite close...so he and I broke up, or so that is what his mother believed. For the next 2 months he and I saw eachother without her knowing. I wanted to tell her but I told my love that she was his mother, so we did whatever he thought was best. 
 After the 2 months, while at work I received texts from his mother telling me to stop stalking him and called me just about every name for a tramp. This threw me into anxiety so I called my love. He began to go through anxiety as well and long story short, we broke up. A few days later I met up with him at his work, driven by a mutual friend of ours. When my love saw me, he smiled and hugged me tight. I felt so relieved that he was not mad at me and I had been so nervous on the drive there. We talked and even laughed a bit. He explained that he holds nothing against me and that I have done nothing wrong. He and I agreed that we should take a break for a while to let things settle down. We agreed upon a year and I asked him, with how he feels about me now, was he leaning towards being with me again? He said yes. I told him we could still text but just as friends...That was 5 months ago and I have not had a single text from him...I have been consciously using the law of attraction for about 3 of those months...and I don't know about you guys but, visualizing and thinking positively exhausts me. I am so tired...and getting frustrated. I can easily see myself with him, marrying him and one day having kids...but I cannot even think of the happy times. When I do, the memories don't just come but so do the feelings...and it brings up a strong desire to see and touch him. I love him with all of my heart...and I don't want to lose him or give up...but I am so tired...and lately I feel that I don't want to work so hard for my desire, only to have him never reach out to me. I need help.