Hey! I joined this forum to restore a particular friendship and to also help my understanding of the LoA. Most importantly, because everyone here is so awesome!! :D Really, so much love for you all! Virtual kisses and hugs!

I've done a lot of healing these past couple of months. I no longer blame myself or anyone involved, I understand it was simply my vibration at the time and that can be (IS) changed. That's a very pleasing, good feeling perspective, and I feel a lot better about myself now! I feel the desire I have for reconnection is to be honoured. I've shifted myself out of lower vibes for sure, and I am more grounded in a neutral-positive vibration daily.

I've learned a new skill, practice said skill, been helping people out, focusing as positively (or neutrally) as I can, shifting any negative emotions, etc. I keep myself occupied in a good way each day!

Now, I believe that I can manifest contact (and much more), and so don't have to reach out and that it's best for me to tend my energy so things will shift well. Only very occasionally do I get the urge to make contact, but I cracked (initiated) last month and nothing happened. I still feel and receive the impression I am thought of by this person.

Recently, I've had some quite positive dreams. I used to have reoccurring nightmares, but those passed as I uplifted my energy. Last night I had a dream where the friend accused me of being something and harshly rejected me. It is perplexing to think why such a dream. I'm not quite sure how this occurred since I'm at the point now where seeing this person's photo gives me the warm fuzzies and is part of my practice of feeling good.

I still have occasional moments where I long for the past and am not satisfied with the seeming lack pertaining to where I am, because there's literally never been such silence between us before, and that can trigger feelings of rejection and hopelessness, like they have permanently moved on, like I meant nothing. If I allow myself to dwell in it I can really start to feel like giving up, but I am doing my best to be deliberate and conscious and avoid those thoughts.

I would really appreciate some guidance on what I can do, how to keep going or if I'm doing this the complete wrong way. I know distance is no obstacle, I believe I am a powerful creator (as are we all), I have a very strong record of attracting specific people... it's just where am I "going wrong" with this one? Is it because I'm scared I won't be able to attract them back (which I think I am)? Has too much time passed? Have they forgotten me? Will they never forgive me? Is it because I'm still looking at it from the perspective "it isn't here yet?" I feel a deep bond with this person, and the idea it's gone forever over some stupid (and now very much outdated) "mis-creating" doesn't feel "true" or "right". It would really help to see some stories of when people came back after a while.

If feeling uncertain I switch to reminding myself there is 100% more evidence I am loved by this friend, and that is definite relief. I remind myself that the time passed doesn't mean anything bad, and only wonderful things are to come.

I feel love is the answer to this, but sometimes I don't know if I still have more fear than love...

It would just be great to know more from another's perspective. Thank you for reading! I hope everyone is doing well!