Hello!
This is my first post at any forum ever! I have had a few failed attempts in the past but I think this time I have something to share that may help others in my same situation.
 
Long story short I wined up at this forum when my boyfriend broke up with me last October, I was devastated as a matter of fact it’s a feeling that comes and goes, because I haven’t been able to let him go completely. I know and I feel deep inside in my heart that we will get back together and there’s also that tiny voice inside my head that tells me the minute I let him go, the minute I get over it and start living myself he will come back. But Gosh its hard isn’t it.
 
I have been emailing with Veronica and thanks to her advice I have manifested a few things. For example my boyfriend (I don’t like the word ex to refer to him) is from Spain, we lived together there for a year and it was a nightmare, all because of my negativity, I was very insecure and was always fearing that he was going to leave and.. surprise surprise he did it!
 
Anyway in March I went back to Madrid to process my diploma (I was doing a master’s program while I was there) and I ended up staying with him at our old apartment for most of the time I was in town, this wasn’t planned at all and I felt great. Of course when I came back to the US things remained the same so we didn’t end up getting back together but at least we both know how much we still care for each other. I apologize this is getting way too long but I am getting to the point.
 
Last week I had an anxiety attack I was stalking his instagram and facebook and saw he added a few girls that had nothing to do with his day to day life so I freaked out so much that my hair started to fall out (this happened in the past and I have been dealing with it for two long years) anyway I couldn’t sleep, eat, even work, all I could do was cry then it hit me I CANT WASTE MY LIFE THIS WAY, I need to go back to the place where I was when we met, the best time of, because I was the most important person in my universe.
 
I decided to get over him, I still love him and I know I will always do, but I don’t want to suffer anymore. If we were to get back together I have to get over him first and put myself back into the center of my universe so I started looking for ways, techniques, I downloaded subliminals etc, but the other day while reading a book by Lannie Stevens in which she talks about EFT (emotional freedom technique) and even though in the past I have heard about it, even at some point (when I was going through another break up) I bought a book on the subject that I never ended up reading, this time it all made sense. I need to free myself from this negative emotion, from my insecurities, love and accept myself for who I am, and forgive myself for the things I have done to sabotage the relationship, and then he will come back to me or I will meet someone better, but that will get solve on its own.

You can find videos on youtube on using EFT to move on from a break up and also to get back, I wanted to share them here but somehow I can't post any links.
 
It’s fairly recent so I can’t say how big the impact, but I notice that I am more calm and more accepting of my current situation, I started focusing more on myself and trying to rediscover what are the things that make me happy. I want to win myself back, before I can win him back.


Thanks so much for all your posts, they have encouraged me and helped me get through my darkest moments!

Wish you all the best of luck in this journey!