Hi everyone,

I'm relatively new to LoA. I came across LoA when I saw Veronica's video on getting a text (standard... haha)

I talked to this boy for half a year before meeting him. When we met it was amazing. but it was a short while. I know I would be back near him again in a year.. and I didn't ask for a relationship. I just wanted us to keep talking like we used to before we met...

But somewhere along the line, i became desperate and clingy, and needy. (I wish I knew about LoA back then). 3 months ago, he asked me to move on. One day after we talked about seeing each other again, saying he doesn't see me as a girlfriend anymore.

For 3 months up until 2 weeks ago, I try to keep in touch. I guess that only pushed him away. I started doing the challenge 8 days ago, and today it's 11 days since we have talked. The longest we went without talking...

Today is especially hard for me because on this day a year ago, we started talking. 

Here is my progress:
- I stopped crying so much. I used to cry all the time, I would go to my company's toilet to cry. I used to cry myself everynight before i sleep. Very healthy.
- I am more positive. I feel less heavy. I believe we will see each other again and things will be ok...
- He liked my facebook post last week (he never used to..)
- He liked and commented on my instagram video on saturday (4 days ago). Ironically, it was a video of me playing the song "we don't talk anymore". All he commented was "Nice". I was really happy. I told myself I did this.
- He watched all my snapstory until saturday...

But there has been a lot of downside. We were never an item, we never fought (not recently..) I always think in the trend of: "he doesn't want to talk means he doesn't want you anymore. isn't that clear enough?" and "he's talking to someone else"... Then i go into sad mode again. But I try my best to stop that and listen to Veronica to bring my mood back up. I have been in the sad mode because he hasn't viewed my story since saturday....

I do not have anyone to talk to. How much do I delay each time I feel sad?

Also.. When I visualise us together, i get tears. They're not sad tears. They're more like "omg i can't believe we're together" tears. Are those tears ok? Or should I try to just refrain?

Thank you for all the replies. I want to manifest us talking again, and open him up. And probably be open to us meeting up.

Thank you for reading.