Don't even know where to put this so I guess it's going here! Nothing necessarily bad is happening. 

Recently, unexpectedly, I attracted another new guy into my life. It's not my ex though, though I had felt that he was close to coming back into my life in some way, but I knew he still had some growing to do and I knew he hadn't grown. 

This new guy is the physical manifestation of everything I visualized, though. He treats me like a queen and I'm not even exaggerating. Foot rubs when I don't even ask for them, constantly, I mean CONSTANTLY tells me how beautiful I am, I'm an angel, anything that I wanted out of a man that I journaled about, I found in him...well, he found me. 

He lives in another state. He's actually the brother of a new friend I met and got close with, I met her in person for the first time, ended up meeting him, I wasn't even interested in him and then we spent a few minutes alone together and just clicked. 

I'm planning, when school is out, on moving out there. Because living where I live no longer serves me, it's too hard to find a job, and I don't have a circle of positive people, but I managed to grow this circle of positive uplifting people in this other town. So, I'm choosing to start a life there. The plans were already made.

So I hear from a mutual friend that my ex has been posting some interesting things on facebook, she thinks it has ties to me but isn't sure. This is the same person who talked to me months ago and said he was just really depressed. She told me to have a look at his profile. I'm with someone else and 100% focused on this other person, and I'm at the point where he doesn't affect me anymore. So I have a look, and I  start seeing really sad stuff. 

Stuff like "everyone comes with baggage, find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack" and different pictures and posts talking about how he's learning how to not run away. I loved him with all of his "baggage" and for awhile he loved me with mine, when it was our time. when we broke up, he ran away. He put up this wall and started burning bridges so I followed suit. 

I'm not sure what i'm getting at here, but I wanted to get my thoughts just out there and on the table. My boyfriend knows about this, I was honest with him and told him  straight up what was going on. Nobody was upset, and I mean, I am moving away. But I  wonder  if these are little signs, I don't know if he sees my profile or not, or looks at it. I really wouldn't know. My relationship status is public, I've posted a few photos of my weight loss which ended up being public so people on my team can share my testimony, so if he has looked at my profile, he'd see how different I look and that I'm now with someone else. He also never used to post anythhihng public on his profile before. Literally, nothing was ever public on his facebook. Now everything is. 

There's been no further contact since that time I emailed him in February. His birthday passed and I didn't send him any wishes or anything. I noticed that these posts began after his birthday though. I also saw that he gained a lot of weight in a recent picture. Not that really matters, but he used to blame me for not going to the gym. Clearly it's not me because I was motivated and lost an entire person since he last saw me. 

I don't know,  I don't want to say I gave up on him, but I often hear "this or something better." So my eyes were open and "something better" happened to walk into my life,so I went with it. I guess if he comes back at some point, which he might be close?  It's hard to tell....all I know is that I'm happy in my new relationship. But if he does, it would be as friends at most, from where I stand now.