Please don't judge me. I am the biggest hearted person you would ever meet.

My ex and I had an amazing relationship. We went on trips, he treated me like a princess and worshipped the ground I walked on. We were together for a year. His family loved me his daughters adored me. In July it got kind of rocky. He was only divorced a month and a half before we met. His ex cheated on him with his best friend since elementary school. He was very insecure and always thought I was cheating.  In October we got into an argument, I was upset he had some young girl on his Facebook 18 years younger from a golf course. I made him delete her. We argued i decided to leave. Once I got home he had me blocked on snapchat and Facebook. ( a little dramatic for an argument) we didn't talk for a few days. And he had me blocked from calling him. So one night I just went to his house. He told me he needed space and and wasn't sure he wanted to be with me. That crushed me.

I would go a few days then call him but all we did was fight. Then we would be good we still had sex during the month of October. Fast forward November 11 he told me to come by and get my shoes. We had conversations and I agreed we needed space I asked him to block me he's like I thought we were going to fix ourselves and get back together.

I went to his house on November 10. His daughters were there I knocked on th door he looked so annoyed. But his daughters wanted me to come in. So he let me in   When it came time for bedtime they wanted me to read them a story  he got angry and I asked if we could talk after they fell asleep he was like No! I'm calling the police.


My reaction was to grab the phone from his hands and I ran out the door. To make a long story short I had his phone for three days I called to give it back and hto refused to take my calls. His family called  me and were nice. I didn't speak to him for a few days.


On November 15 he filed for a ppo and I felt like I was hit by a truck. He said I assaulted him which I accid tally scratched him when I took his phone. H said I called and threatened his friends and family. Which I wasn't true.

I filed a motion to terminate had a lawyer had all this proof. But I have a sister who is a sociopath and she assisted him. In so many ways that he Won.

I'm heartbroken crushed I've lost 30 lbs. but I know that my Ex is damaged yet I forgive him. I want this ppo dropped I want him to get help.  I kno my sister had a lot to do with it  when i found out she was involved I called her and screamed at her. She calls the police. I emailed her and threatened to tell the family she's an escort. And called her probation officer  my ex gave all that proof to the judge. And since i inadvertently scratched him that was assaul.  It's been four months and my heart is still crushed. I miss him. I wanted to marry him. I'm not an ugly person I could have anyone I want. I want him.

This whole thing cam out of nowhere. My sociopathic sister even sent me a text between my ex and her saying if he would've known I was pregnant he wouldn't of put this on me.

Is this a waste of time to try the law of attraction I still cry I miss our relationship so much. He told me he would never find a woman who would love him like I do