TurtlePower wrote:

Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement. This is honestly what I needed, for someone to tell me it was possible for me. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

And to Flamingo:
I have been considering not contacting her for some time again. After all I wasn't the one who broke no contact, she was the one who reached out to me first, repeatedly. She even gets upset if I don't reply fast enough to her. I am confident she loves me too much to let me walk out of her life. We walk a fine line of being loving and supportive and all out trying to get the upper hand on each other. Like I previously mentioned, we were together again for a week recently but she said she wanted to spend some time on loving herself first and heal herself. I was actually okay with it because I saw it as the Universe helping me come another step closer to a healthy relationship. She admitted that she was the cause to a lot of the problems and she wanted to fix them. But now she says she doesn't want to be with me even though she loves me. She's now letting other people take her out on dates and I try not to think of the rest.

Was it okay for me to tell her I am confident that we are going to get married one day and be happy and in love?
I told her I knew she was coming back so I didn't let the break up affect me as much.

But now I can't even keep my cool. It just hurts all over again.

 
I'm no loa expert, but it sounds like you would benefit from a no contact period.
If she contacts you, maybe tell her that you need a couple of weeks to yourself?
In that time, focus on loving your self. Send out lots of love to her. Forgive both you and her for what went wrong. Everytime you think of her, think "i love you too, [her name]". It's all about love. Visualise the relationship you want. Maybe write a journal and scripting. Do things that makes you happy. Go out with friends. Visit family. And it's really important that you show gratitude. There are a lot of things to he grateful for.
I write every day, 10 things i'm grateful for. It could be small things as, the air because it let me breathe.
Love everything around you. Look at the mirror and smile at youself for 5 minutes every day. Know that you are a great person. You are unique. There's only one like you. You! You are awesome!