One step at a time. I think your first challenge is to choose to let go of the sadness and anxiety because you're so used to feeling that way. Until you decide to try you will stay where you are and unfortunately you can't get to where you want to be from there.

Hisoneandonly wrote:

Deliciously_happy wrote:

Hisoneandonly wrote:

 Yes, I can see the different. And I totally understands it, it's something new that I can try.

When I wake up, I would still get to my phone because if we're together, I would do the same just to text him goodmorning and to check out what he told me about what have he done for the whole day, but I see no text. So it kinda hit me back to physical reality. And I will be like " when is he coming back..." and back to the circle again.

Last night, my car accidentally broke down again, I was thinking how would he do when he knows about this. And how would he care if he's around. Then I look back like how caring he is that he would rush to my house or call me and even bring me to repair my car..., then look to the recent days that how he treated me so badly, that he might just don't care...

True you can think he doesn't care or his phone is not working so he has no way to find out.... Or I might not see evidence that he care but maybe if he knew he would care, i choose to believe he would. In the morning I didn't see a text but maybe he thinks about me in the morning but he doesn't dare to message me, I choose to believe he doesn't message because he's unable to do it or because he's wondering if he should ... I don't have proof that he care but it's nice to believe he does, so I believe he cares. I don't know if he'll message me but I believe that he might or he could when the time is right... Maybe I don't know for sure that this Loa works but I believe if I try that something could happen so I'll give it a shot for s bit l..

Can you tell the difference in how these feel I. Comparison to I see no message and he doesn't care ?

 
The difference is it sounds hopeful and happier and the other one sounds much sadder and hopeless...

But you have to believe something that you can't see right? I hate myself for keep finding evidence that he still cares. But it end up being hopeless..

The world is trying to tell you that you get back exactly what you focus upon. Which is currently no guy and a broken down car!

Cherished wrote:

The world is trying to tell you that you get back exactly what you focus upon. Which is currently no guy and a broken down car!

 
But cherished, I really want him back.... every morning I don't feel it. When I close my eyes and visualise I feel so tired and feels nothing...

Rmb I said I can't get lanie's book? Because of the country restrictions. I got it yesterday from unlimited kindle 30 days free trail! Did I accidentally attracted it? Anyway, I got a question in mind, there's this girl that like my guy for 2 years plus..WHAT IF, she knows about loa too? And wanted to attract him to her? Is this possible? Then how would the universe let him be back to me when it happens like this?

Does reading lanie's book helps for me now?

I'm trying to change my thoughts, but the feelings can't reach where it should be.

Cherished wrote:

Listen.  This is YOUR experience. Your life.  Your story. So stop worrying about everybody else's business and attract what YOU WANT!! What do you want?  Your guy. Ok. So forget everything about the past, your horrific stories and dramas, other girls and everything else pertaining to the guy..... clean the slate! Start from scratch.

The only story you should be telling and thinking and feeling is the one you wish to create.
But you also must remember your own self worth. Perhaps the Lanie book can help you to remember and practice some self love.

 
I thought hanging out with friends and busy with other things are some self love?