Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand now I've been asked out by a friend of a friend who is a model. WTF? WHAT IS MY LIFE?

He's attractive and all, and apparently nice, but things are still SO fresh and there's only one person I want... I can see the upside to just going out for a casual drink thing with a very attractive person (who has been flirting up a storm with me) and having fun with it, BUT... 

No, I know. It's just going to be a challenge to not feel sad and weird about it. Maybe it'll be an opportunity to bring my manifestation to fruition faster because I turn my attention to something else for a little bit. It just feels weird when you've JUST gotten out of a long wonderful relationship.

Thanks, guys. I suppose that I'll go for it with no expectations because it's too soon for me to want to really date or hookup with someone, but at least have a good time with a hot person. It'll be a nice self-esteem boost, maybe. 

I guess I should see this as a sign that I'm succeeding in raising my vibration so much in such a brief period of time, so I'm attracting the generality of what I want. And that vibration is what will also bring my love back into my life and show him that I'm NOT clinging, that I'm the same smart self-assured confident person I was when we started dating, without the anxiety that damaged our relationship. Could very well show him that I am NOT clinging to anxiety or misery and I'm still the woman he fell in love with.

Thank you for being here for me to talk about this and helping me keep things in perspective, guys. I am grateful.

Today, I woke up feeling "meh". Not BAD, just meh. I decided I could do better than "meh", so I posted a challenge in this forum and then 5 minutes later, had an opportunity to help a cancer patient in my area get access to something she needed.

As I sat and worked, I realized I wanted a snack, but I didn't want to go to the kitchen and spend the time to cook. Then my eye fell on the bag of my stuff that my beloved returned from his house the other night. I hadn't unpacked it and put the stuff away yet. I suppose I'd be avoiding it. And then I remembered: there were protein bars in there that I had kept in his kitchen during our relationship! Coconut ones! I love those!

So thank you, my beloved, for ensuring that I had a tasty snack close at hand, just as you would if you had already been here. I love you too.

Right after that, I was scrolling through FB and saw an ad for a pair of leggings I had worn on my first date with him. Yup, I feel you.

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