So I just had a really intense dream of my love. It went like this:

I was visiting a bar somewhere ahen my love walked past. I jumped up and embraced her, because I had thought her dead. She was surprised and shook me loose, telling me roughly she had to work right now, and vanished. She was working one bar, and I another, and I left her alone.

Later, a friend of hers I recognized came by to tell me my love had worked it where she was alone and wanted to tell me something. In the dream, I couldn't make myself go to her. I was afraid she wouldn't accept me after so long an absence, that she wouldn't be interested, that she would break my heart as she did in the past. So I awoke without seeing her.

In real life, I've been on Cloud 9, certain that she's arriving immediately, since the middle of November. It actually got to where I was frustrated that she hasn't officially manifested, despite my love and visualization, in all this time.

I wrote Veronica, who told me today there must be a hint of doubt somewhere. This dream is only too clearly telling me what the issue is, so I'd like your guys' advice. How do I remove this doubt? It feels like a matter of getting past this fear, but I'm unsure what to do. Can you help?

I have gained a little weight (I'm starting a diet/exercise regimen), I have cracked a tooth recently (setting an appointment to repair it tomorrow), alI am transitioning jobs (finally convert next week, which is a huge strain from my life), and I am redecorating an apartment (still searching for some furniture, although this feels mundane by comparison. These will do wonders for my self-esteem, and I'm going to look in other areas, too. For the most part, I intellectually understand I'm better than I've ever been, and I'm more the man she fell in love with than ever, so this is a bit of a surprise.

I would appreciate any advice you can give here, and thank you so much for your time.

Tl;dr: Dreamt I'm scared to talk to my love due to time and fear of rejection. Confused on why, and curious how to fix. Can you advize?