collie wrote:

Unfortunately, I do wobble and lets things i hear or experience interfere and ruin my mood. Another thing that i read is that we mustn't let hurt get in the way and we must forgive quickly. Is that true? If i don't send him a message before he goes on duty it will only be coz i am hurt..should i try overcome it and send him a message to take care before he goes and then go NC until he contacts me and he will?

Because that is what you trained all your life. You can train to react less to circumstances.

Think about what being hurt means. It's a bad feeling and therefore out of alignment with the perspective of your Inner Being. It doesn't mean that the other person did something wrong. It means that you are in the process of creating of something you don't want. Don't act on your emotions. Think about what they want to tell you, think about what you want and then act on what you want.

Sanshi, it is a feeling i don't like nor want to continue creating.
PrettyFlamingo, i made it very clear that i didn't like his comment..he knows so i think he won't repeat it.
I want to stop thinking that once he is single he will prefer other girls.
I need to work on that! I need to believe that i am worthy and another girl isnt better than me.

I need to practice self love and do things that make me feel good.
Today, i woke up and it was a beautiful day so i decided i can either stay home or go out and enjoy my day even though my friends were all busy with their kids or work. So i went alone and i am glad i did. Even tried to help a horse who was tied to a carriage and it is illegal and the poor horse didnt look good ..couldn't stand by and do nothing so i called the authorities who took it seriously
I need to know that if someone is thinner or prettier doesn't make her any more worthy of a relationship.