tessy wrote:

Its such a painful story....I am so sorry you had to go through all this....but u know there is always something good hidden behind the way the universe works....I dont know if its good or bad to want him back....I really dont know....but if u still love him, u can surely have him provided u are in a good place first; right now u are not in a good place to attract him back. Take some time off, visit your family, work on yourself, only then try to put LOA. Rigtt now u will only attract the things u dont want as ur focus is on the lack....so just take care of your health now. Be the lovely confident young woman that u were and then start the work. God bless

Thank you Tessy I appreciatte your advice, but i think that maybe starting with this is actually helping
I was on a really dark place..and i dont know the day after i started watching veronica´s videos about getting you ex back....i kind of have hope.
Yesterday i clean my apartment and actually have a bath (didnt take a shower in 5 days before that) and i started reading your stories and the book and i think i can do it....
I know it might be too soon , and he´s going to be in other continent for 6 months so maybe i´m crazy but yesterday was like i have light again, i smiled, invited friends for dinner and only cried if somebody asked me about the baby.
My work is on shift...i have 24 hours shift but only 8 days a months so the not showering was when i had to stay home and not come to work...but last month was like that, bed, crying, getting up to take my dog out on my pijama´s and bed again.
Yesterday that change...i have faith and hope, i know that if i can get him back we can work things out and eventually try to have this soul that we lost with us....maybe is a dream, but who says that we can´t make dreams come true? 
I created an email account with his name, and i send messages like good morning hows your trip, and answered myself with nice words to visualize him writing.
Last night and this morning i visualize him with me, set the table for the two of us, and actually washed the dishes for two.... Im trying to focus and belive my two down points are 1) that he will be in asia for 6 months (doing this self-discovering trip that off course he can cut short if he wanted) and 2) that everyone that is in my circle hates him for the way he behaved....i dont want to disregard that fact he was i dont know like someone put a spell on him or brainwashed....his mom is known for playing with magic and those kind of stuff, so i dont know if she´s done something to him like that...because he wasn´t the Xavi that i known and trusted, but the button line is that if we could get back together it will be hard from both of our love ones to accept it.
But i truly believe that we are meant to be together....

HI! just wanted to tell you that im much more possitive, im living life, i volunteer myself in a animal protection association and giving back to the world.
Everybody is amazed by the change they see in me, im not a dead person walking around im cheerful, helpful and always with a smile.
I dont know if the challenge its going to let me be with Xavi back but im gratefull that i found myself again, if he comes with the package great! but the important thing is that i remember that i have value 
Im doing my visualizations, scripting, some RS, reading the affirmations so is not that i gave up on that...no way he is mine and my dream will come true!
But is a big step for me that im doing things for me...i started driving lessons that i put that away for years...Im happy with myself i know what i worth and when he come back (that he will) will be on my terms  

Last edited by elydizzy (12/14/2016 5:43 pm)

elydizzy wrote:

HI! just wanted to tell you that im much more possitive, im living life, i volunteer myself in a animal protection association and giving back to the world.
Everybody is amazed by the change they see in me, im not a dead person walking around im cheerful, helpful and always with a smile.
I dont know if the challenge its going to let me be with Xavi back but im gratefull that i found myself again, if he comes with the package great! but the important thing is that i remember that i have value 
Im doing my visualizations, scripting, some RS, reading the affirmations so is not that i gave up on that...no way he is mine and my dream will come true!
But is a big step for me that im doing things for me...i started driving lessons that i put that away for years...Im happy with myself i know what i worth and when he come back (that he will) will be on my terms  

I'm so very happy to hear this!  Continue to feel good!