Sanshi wrote:

You still have all your focus on physical reality and when you just observe what is, that is what you get more of. As long as you think reality is real, life will be a roller coaster ride.

It's so hard to not do that .... how can I ignore the reality?
The reason we fought was that we said we were playing last night and usually he's coming online around 9 but nothing. No text or anything ... on half past 10 he suddenly wrote 'heyyy ) wanna play a few minutes :D' and I was very pissed because I waited for so long and just answered 'no i don't want to anymore. Night' and he got angry and answered 'I couldn't make it more early.' And something like (hard to translate lol) I shouldn't put my **** mood on him... and then I was pissed because he wrote that mean and so on really stupid. Today he told me he had to work almost everyday this week longer because they have a lot of work to do before Christmas and he has to prepare because he's moving out of his apartment.
Another reason I was so pissed I was or still am afraid he would lie to me and would meet another girl .... but by now he never lied to me about that...

Any chance you were worried that you'd lose it? That's a common feeling, I think. Don't think of it as starting over. You know how to think and align so do so. :-)

Avaelle wrote:

Any chance you were worried that you'd lose it? That's a common feeling, I think. Don't think of it as starting over. You know how to think and align so do so. :-)

To be honest ... after I wrote the thread yesterday I even thought 'how stupid if it would be if tomorrow everything would be different again' but then I thought 'nah I should have some luck finally' ...
so what's your advice how to think now?

Sanshi wrote:

First of all, stop putting energy in writing this stories down. It serves no purpose.

You have to understand that it is just a reflection of your state of consciousness. You can't really ignore it, because you always focus on something and if you try to focus on ignoring your reality, your focus is on your reality. That doesn't help. Look at a child when it is playing. It doesn't see a reality. It's completey imerged in what it is doing. If you could imerge yourself in the same way in thoughts and images that aren't based on your reality... Nobody can force you to base your thoughts on reality.

What's the best way to do that if it's not by trying to ignore it? I tried it with 'how would it feel if he's visiting me now' and stuff like that