I woke up today, great mood, focus in a real good place.  I believed today was going to be a turning point for me.  Fast forward to a few hours later and i'm at an all time low.   I question everything i  believe in,, i'm on the verge of tears and no matter how hard i try, i can't find one redeeming thing about my day to get myself out of this funk.  Work was ridiculously frustrating.  Even when i tried to breath my breathing irritating me.  My bosse's boss was on my case about things i can't do anything about.  No lunch break to take a breather and refous, had an appointment that ran 1 1/2 hour late. just frustrating sitting around waiting.  I did try to make use of my time and focus on being happy with myself but the distractions were insane.   I was convinced M would turn up, he knew i was there, after all he set it up for me.  Nothing, nadda, not even a glimpse of him.   I drove home feeling absolutely deflated.  Someone, something suck the air out of me today   I've not had this bad of a day in a long time.   I guess i just felt the need to vent and since i don't talk to anyone about my work on manifesting my most intense desire, this is the only place i could turn to.  So thank you for being there.  Maybe i need to step back a bit and focus on me.   I'll pull it together, i guess i just have go back to the beginning and find the little things to be happy and grateful for.   i'm so so tired.