We aren't. We're the bravest of the brave. Who loves and trusts against such odds?

I appreciate what you said and I agree you need to be very brave in order to do what we do. 
What I meant is why do we, creators, have to create such dramatic situation in life. 
I am referring to the situation that made us all come here. 

yes I have also seen my thoughts in the first row with a big criticism after learning from this community. This is what changed. In new attitude I have managed to restore my life, it is fun again. In the past days I had trouble planting some beliefs that were not good. I hated me for not being able to control that and simply stop picking up on those thoughts. I guess that is  one of two hardest things to achieve. Another is to really believe that it is possible that she wants you back too. For this one I am on and off constantly.