I smoked like a chimney after the break up, I had always smoked but due to that fact I felt pretty shitty I smoked even more as it seemed to help a lot.
Like I mentioned in my previous posts I was literately a steaming hot mess of a woman haha.
Over the last few week of applying LOA I have been feeling that my need for them have been decreasing so I had been unintentionally cutting down, yesterday something different happened.
I went outside with the intention of enjoying my cigarette. It was late, the air was cold and the moon was out, I lit my cig and put it to my mouth and drew in the warm smoke. I suddenly started to gag. I actually came close to throwing up but I didn't stop smoking as I thought it was just a fluke. I inhaled a couple more breaths of the cigarette and I continued to wretch. I couldn't continue anymore as the cigarette had started to taste and smell vile. I threw that cigarette away, I didn't finish it. I ran to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and rinsed my mouth out. I went to my bedroom grabbed my cigarettes and threw them away because looking at them made me feel nasty. I have not needed any today. The thought of having a cigarette makes me sick to my stomach.
SO in other words...I think I have just quit.