Everything has been great with us. All of a sudden there are these doubts. He has been much more patient than ever, and I can't stop focusing on him putting that we are together on social media. I keep thinking horrible things about him trying to make other people think he is available when he is not and him trying to pick up other women and whatnot. I know i create my reality. This is exactly why we have repeat break ups. Because of these thoughts! They have stayed away for weeks. I even fought the urge to go through his stuff last night. It got me today. I went through it. That is how I found out his social media says single. Ugh. I need the focus back on me. I won't rush things. Mine is gonna say single as well but I won't be a coward and hide it from him. It will be public. I will keep focusing on me and my happiness. If it is with him ok if not then great things will come to me. I need my power back. I have been doing so well. I have no clue what is wrong I have been very emotional on every level lately. Just wanting to cry for no particular reason at all. Please send positive vibes. Much needed right now. I need to start listing everything I am grateful for right now. He is right by my side most people would kill for this. He is sleeping while I'm freaking out insecure.