Guys,
  I feel upset but I still went out to hang with friends yesterday. I went to watch movie with them. Yea at first, things went well but suddenly boom the feelings came...I can't get rid of it. But the friends I hang out it are two guys.. they try to be close to me, and I feel disgusting. I can't imagine myself being with another guy... then I miss him more.. we're on nc now. It's the first time we went nc.. I feel so sad..
Then remember loveyourself ask me to start to attract the smallest thing first like the blue balloon? To build up my trust for loa? Yea, I tried to attract a blue balloon to see as in my country it's pretty hard to see that. But! I suddenly saw it on a banner, and it's on it!!! A blue hot air balloon. I don't know, does it sounds like coincidence? Then I still trust it then I ask for signs for me and my guy , then it shows a banner with the wedding thing and I saw a car plate num 8888 (we celebrate our anniversary for 8 days, 88 days... because the infinity symbol is my favourite symbol) then I say" I'm still not sure of it means me and my guy. Can you give me more?" Then my friends went to pick up his friend, his friend smells exactly like him I think they used the same shampoo, but I'm still not sure of it, after that when I come out from the movie, I saw a guy standing right in front of me and he's wearing the exact same jacket that my guy used to wear! What does these all means?

That was all yesterday, I talked to my girlfriendss last night bout him , they were like"give up please , just let go , he dont worth it"  well, I'm not affected with that..but what attacks me most is one of my guy friend said "he cheated on you last year in Taiwan, he will do the same now in England" damn.... urgh.

I have a high vibration last night, so I know that he didn't text and I was like "nvm, he will text me".  But this morning, I feel terrible... what is going on. Help me please?

I'm scared the longer time it takes, I will lose my hope and giveup... and we will end up just like this .. I'm scared that the longer we dint contact, the more distant we have. I just feels like crying rn... I'm so scared..

Cherished wrote:

I'd love to help you, and believe me I'm trying.. But you MUST understand that this is an LOA forum. Where everyone believes that thoughts create your reality. You can't immediately have everything you want. You just can't. But you CAN ABSOLUTELY spend some time quieting your mind by breathing deeply, closing your eyes and thinking of what you DO WANT. But you have to focus to do that. You really do have total control over your thoughts. But you are CHOOSING to think all the bad ones. Make a very deliberate effort to stop mentioning the bad stuff. Just try.

 
I did try to stop thinking of it., but the feelings keep coming and I can't get rid of it. I feel so hurt. Did all those signs mean anything? I know can't have it immediately... but what should I do..

Cherished wrote:

Yes. The feelings will keep coming until you can change the THOUGHTS. I'm only on this forum to practice LOA, so I can only give advice based on that. And based on LOA, nothing can change until you make it change by focussing on something more positive. Perhaps you might try seeking some counselling or talking to somebody about this from a non-LOA perspective. And come back to your LOA practice when you're feeling more able to control your thoughts. Best of luck 😘

 
How do we change our thoughts and it wouldn't be shaken? Not a stable mind I'm having..

Cherished wrote:

It takes time.  And patience. One thought at a time. Change each thought to one slightly better thought. Every single time. Until it becomes habitual.

 
Cherished, when I'm in a high vibration can I use rs?

They said rs only attract that person to have sexual feelings to you? But they don't love you?