Laura1234 wrote:

Sanshi wrote:

Laura1234 wrote:

and I give me a challenge I will with him on the Christmas. today is 24th ..two months.I so much desire be with him on Christmas, and celebrate New Year..

Why do you want to limit yourself? I understand that you want to spend Christmas with your love, but we all can see clearly that you aren't aligned with the reality you want yet. It's your work to get to this place of alignment and nobody can tell you how long that will take you. So why don't you relax and enjoy the process and the learing experiences without any pressure?
 

 
because my every christmas are sad. ok I am grateful for my family because they are great but every christas I sad that Im not with person who I love.. I want christmas where I will with my family and with my love.. I know that I must learn be happy alone too but why people in my life arent happy alone and they have boyfriends now and they are still with them and happy... I want too be whith person who loves me and who I love.. I had always a complicated relationships. At the beginning they want be only with me and they like me and later they say that they fell not for a relationship ..I want have a really and happy relationaship too. and this relationship which I want back now it lookeď budding.. but he leave me like every my ex.. so I know that I attract all this realtionships because is some inside me what these bad relationships attracted.. but Im tired from visualisation and doIng RS and trying do happy yourself.. why my friend never did these things and she attract good a relationship? her ex cheated her and she didnt no work with yourself and she attract boy who loves her..

Stop telling yourself that stories. Your selftalk is the very reason why your life looks as it looks. You never get what you need. You need him to make your Christmas happy, so he can't come to you.
 

Laura1234 wrote:

So what should I do? I need some a summary or what. What do you think about my current reality which I wrote in this topic?

There is no point for me, you are anybody else to even think about your current reality as long as it isn't what you prefer. It really has no relevance for creating what you want. I repeat myself over and over again, but the only thing that you should do is focusing on what you want and feel good about it. Stop telling all that old stories that aren't serving you. Tell us new stories about how much he loves you and cares for you and make that reality in your head more important than the reality you can see. It's really the same thing. If you could take your "reality" a little bit less serious and your imagination a little bit more serious, everything would change for you.

I've started keeping a daily journal like I did as a teenager, except this days it's more positive about my relationship and how great my days are, unlike my old diaries back then which were the definition of teenage angst, pages upon pages of  "I'm sad because no boys like me", so naturally they didn't like me. You'll get your desire, you just can't focus on lack. Focus on lack, more lack follows, focus on lack again, more lack again, did you say lack? More lack! Once you find peace within yourself and are able to see the good in yourself and everything around you, your relationship included it'll all align with ease and you'll even wonder why you were so worried!