“Nothing can prevent your picture from coming into concrete form except the same power which gave it birth - yourself' Genevieve Behrend

Hi there, my name is Sandra and I am addicted to Veronica's ability to turn my panic striken emails into moments of clarity and surges of motivaation. I am really happy to find likeminded people to share with because well, we live in a world where people would consider the act of sitting alone in your room visualizing in your third chakra how your significant order ( who is not yet aware tht you're absolutely everything he needs in life and then some but he'll come around eventually) is in a relationship with you and you're both happy so that your reality can get the hint and catch up- absolute madness and serious case of lala land disease. 

ps : i had made a gorgeous posts with images and visuals so you can enjoy this incredibly long - but quite detailed- post but the spam guard wouldn't let me post it...sorry for the long without images post but i'll help you visualize

We don't mind though, we feel good thinking about things that makes us happy and make us feel empowered. I remember one day during an argument back when my relationship with my mother was closer to world war 3 then gummy bears and rainbows, she told me out of anger ;' to stop dreaming, get back to reality and get a job' because i had just been accepted in a Broadway dance school and was looking for ways to afford it - you know by sitting in my room and visualizing it. Unfortunately I listened... and so i never went. But i created something else for myself that still makes me happy so it's okay... Sooooo... 

Considering that we all know who we're in a relationship with, how our relationship is and the fact that it's all in the realm of the invisible where everything aligns before taking the leap into our tangible reality once we're at the right place and time to embrace and welcome them, how do you handle the dr jeckle and mr hyde syndrome in the meantime?

I don't know how old everyone is but, when i was younger there was a trilogy called the Gremlins with the cutest little creature called Guismo. - there was a super cute image of Guismo here- 

It could sing this sweet ( but somewhat creepy ) melody and was just so sweet and gentle and fuzzy ( SO FUZZY!!) - the only thing is you couldn't feed it past a certain time, nor expose it to water or direct light - or  these horrible little destructive monsters would pop out of him and turn the world into mayhem. - iamvges of gremlins in the movie theatre - you'd have loved this one-

i feel a lot like tht sometimes. My happy thoughts are like Guismo, when i am aligned, visualizing, in the knowing, turned on tuned in tapped on as Abe says, it's so sweet, gentle, exciting and just deliciously happy ( see what I did there )... but then I break one of the rules, sometimes even unbeknownst to me and next thing you know - hideous gremlins of fear, worry, anxiety, limiting beliefs pop up and if youve seen the movie : getting rid of them is a friggin' GONG SHOW! I have managed most of them.

But there is one - the chief gremlin, - picture of that hideous creature here, good i couldn't them though, he looks really nasty- who is a little smarter than the others and probably knows me best who is so persistent- I am at my whits end. If I fight him, it exhausts me and he wins, if i leave him there he's just like a tasmanian devil eating everything around it... i can't kill it, i can't ignore it. Now the thing with gremlins is they never kill or harm anyone per say, but they make a lot of noise and are very scary they thrive on your fear of them and the power they have to scare you ( they actually laugh when they're proud of how terrified you are)- one of their favorite activities is to torture Guismo because they know how scared he is of them and how guilty he feels that they emanate from him ...

My chief Gremlin is the non-deserving. 

See my signicant other ( who is in the process of realizing how much he loves me and can't continue life without me in it so help me the good lord almighty and his angel possee) is effin' gorgeous ( like Good god gorgeous1), and he works with a uniform ... so the attention level he gets is madness! Now, I m not unattrative myself and i do a very public job and get a lot of attention too - but I don't take any of it seriously because I don''t care about anyone else and i m fiercely loyal like that - but I can't seem to project that certainty i have within myself about him unto him about me. I think about all the half naked chicks desperate for his attention, some super gorgeous, praying that maybe he'll acknowlege them - and since he travels a lot, I have a lot of time to overthink that ****. 

I don't want to talk about this Gremlin too much, it gives him power - but how do I get to a place of ' who cares about the other bitches, Iam effin Sandra' for heaven sake!!! why worry about the other pieces of glass when I am the only diamond ? 

like seriously i don't even know why i do that ...wait i just realized : I am a diamond that still thinks it's a piece of charcoal.... well dang!

imagine a  picture here of a diamond with the saying :  ' A diamond is just a piece of charcoal that handled stress exceptionally well'.

Any insights are fabulously welcome ... i don't know you at all but i have decided i love you all in advance. 

can't wait to read you
Deelish'
 

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