I am locked in this damn cycle. I am so frustrated. He left me again with no warning at all. I know i could get him back i always do. Im just exhausted with trying to get him back. I have lost trust and faith. I have come so far with loa in all areas of my life but this hurts. I am in a bad spot right now. I love him. I have been scripting, meditating, practicing forgiveness. He is amazing but who breaks up with someone every month for a year. I feel used. I know it is only what i feel inside but we used to be so amazing. I wanted that back. Part of me still does. I am exhausted. Right now i am mentally and physically exhasuted. I know i could  get him back so what? Is it worth it anymore? Plus i feel guilty for sending screenshots to his mother and the girl his family tried to hook him up with. I just wanted them to know how i felt played and used when he makes it seem like i am crazy.