Don't give up! Something major could change. Stay aligned, the universe knows what it's doing.

Junior and Sunny you are so right.  I know this.  I have felt we are so close.  I visited him and a older couple spoke to us and asked if we were married.  We told them that Brian had moved to this small place and had a really great job.  That I have been trying to find a job.  They happened to have a son in need of the service company I work for.  Also when the man asked if we were married.  Brian said no.  The man said.  Are you going to ask her.  Brian said.  Maybe.  I was so blown away.  I looked at the man and said you got him to say maybe.  The man then asked me.  What would be my answer.  I wanted to say yes, but I was afraid that I would totally scare Brian away.  Also I was afraid of putting myself out there.  The spontaneous trip to see where he lives and could I see myself there.  I fell in love with the city where my company is.  I feel in the love with the nearby place I could live.  It fit in my head as a nice quiet place to fit me and my personality.  I could see myself excel in many ways.  Later  that night Brian got serious with me and told me.   That I needed to only move there if it was for me.  Not for him.  That he may only stay til his lease is up in March.  He said that my happiness had to be about me and not relying on him to make me happy.  I know this.  As to why I sought out areas I would be happy at my new job and place to live.  I don't know what he is afraid of.  I am so tired and all around me are so angry at him and even more down on me because I am so sad.  I am tired of the lectures.  I am lonely and sad.  I never expected he would move away.  But our area is not a good place to be.  He still owns his home here and he said his plan is if he isn't happy there he will come home.  I just need positive thoughts and suggestions.  I so appreciate your words.  I am going back to the drawing board.   Back to reading all of Veronicas books and getting myself back on board.   I can't give up.  My heart won't let me.