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So, a few weeks ago I wrote about how my Love said some not so nice things, but that in fact manifested them myself. I struggled with depression in the past and my doctor currently thinks I have very very low self-esteem. I spoke to my guy last night and he said that he told his friend that we are taking some space from each other. I cried to my friend and then proceeded to meditate. My constant issue has always been negative thoughts, not just about my relationship but about intelligence and myself.Β
So what is the bright side? It is the hey he didn't say we were over he just said space. I'm okay with that because I am not being the best person to myself and therefore cannot be an amazing girlfriend to my Love, that he deserves. I let him go yesterday because I know that I need to work on myself. Yes, he isn't there but I am seeing him this weekend and after that I will see him when we are both vibrationally aligned and I'm not scared about it. As Cherished mentioned in a post today, "Christmas is coming!" and my Love's birthday and I will be spending those two days with him madly in love. So I just wanted to say sometimes it is a good thing that they walk out of your life, but it makes the space for them to come back and you to be the boyfriend or girlfriend that you deserve and that they deserve. I don't know if anyone agrees?
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Alycat1110 wrote:
So, a few weeks ago I wrote about how my Love said some not so nice things, but that in fact manifested them myself. I struggled with depression in the past and my doctor currently thinks I have very very low self-esteem. I spoke to my guy last night and he said that he told his friend that we are taking some space from each other. I cried to my friend and then proceeded to meditate. My constant issue has always been negative thoughts, not just about my relationship but about intelligence and myself.Β
So what is the bright side? It is the hey he didn't say we were over he just said space. I'm okay with that because I am not being the best person to myself and therefore cannot be an amazing girlfriend to my Love, that he deserves. I let him go yesterday because I know that I need to work on myself. Yes, he isn't there but I am seeing him this weekend and after that I will see him when we are both vibrationally aligned and I'm not scared about it. As Cherished mentioned in a post today, "Christmas is coming!" and my Love's birthday and I will be spending those two days with him madly in love. So I just wanted to say sometimes it is a good thing that they walk out of your life, but it makes the space for them to come back and you to be the boyfriend or girlfriend that you deserve and that they deserve. I don't know if anyone agrees?
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I so agree with this! I am on the same place as you now AlyCat1110! I always have the nega thoughts and all the sad things in life in my mind and then I realized thru a Rori Raye article that you really need to appreciate your guy or any guy and stop looking for the nega/bad sides since if you do, you're coming from a place of lack. Like there's nothin to be thankful for kind of thinking and that is not right and healthy. Now what I am doing is just asking God to really make for us, my guy and I, to get back together and really embrace myself and accept myself when I miss him, really wanna see him and be with him cos I love him. β€ You are doin yourself a favor by loving and accepting who you truly are and how you reallu feel and that, I think, is the best gift you will ever receive from God. As for your guy, continue asking and believing for your brand new relationship and unison that will surely lastly forever to God and He will surely make a way. Remember, even a size of a mustard seed of faith could go a LONG way! Keep believing and praying! Time will come we'll be together forever with our men. Hihih much love and light to you!!! πβ€
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Yes, I definitely wasn't appreciating myself so there way no way he was feeling appreciated. it is hard because even though I'm feeling good at most times, it still is him not being there and I am allowing myself to feel those feelings as well. I know we are meant to be, but my inner voice is still present and I'm working hard to shut it up!Β
I just keep reciting " I am so grateful for my loving relationship with my love, I know we are truly in love"Β
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I agree that sometimes it's good to have a big break from one another to come back to each other
However I think that if you want to make this relationship more happy and easy and work better, you need to just love yourself about ten times more than you are now. That means just put the vibe of 'queen' or 'rockstar' on. Dress up as nice as possible and start looking in the mirror and seeing someone really hot and beautiful. Don't accept bad behaviour anymore. When my self esteem is down, I usually play songs that raise it as well as watching interviews of celebrity women that I admire and watching other helpful videos on youtube for self esteem. Just take your focus away from him and the relationship a little and put it squarely on building yourself up. If you don't, you really run the risk of sabotaging the relationship...trust me...been there, done that!
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I couldn't agree more. You know my mind keeps going back to I just didn't love myself enough because at the first sight of trouble my self esteem issues got the best of me. I am slowly making my way back and I even just feel better so I know that is a step in the right direction. However, I know that I still have some way to go. A huge thing that I know I did wrong the last time was i stopped mediating and visualizing and doing all of those things that made me feel good because I had my love back. Not this time. It is important to remember that this is a life change and that if you maintain and believe and lead with love for yourself first, that is what will manifest your love. Β