Welcome to the forum.

AerinLR wrote:

My jealousy and lack of control on my emotions have resulted in us both saying things we did not mean.

I hope you are aware of the fact that the 25 day challenge won't save you from that forevermore? You have to change your thinking permanently to get that under your control.

AerinLR wrote:

Its not easy telling anyone you're on this journey because it will sound crazy to them. 

Just don't do it. I think we all tried to convince everyone of LoA in the beginning and we all came to a cropper. Sometimes, keeping silence is the best thing you can do. I know that it's hard, especially, if you invest much time in research and are very interested in the topic. But the forum is a good place to solve that problem.

AerinLR wrote:

I have to believe..and WHEN we get together again I know I will still need some support then. 

That's a mistake many people make in the beginning. First of all, every time you think "I HAVE to", be careful. LoA is not about forcing and struggling your way to your desire. Everytime it feels like work, you aren't on the right track. Second, you can't make you believe. Yes, of course, everyone is telling you that you have to believe in your desire and it's true. But not so many tell you that you can't believe in it while you are in despair (or any other low vibration emotion). Belief is a very different vibration. You can't jump to it immediately. You have to work your way up the emotional scale slow and steady. And yes, I used the term "work" for lack of a better word.

AerinLR wrote:

Thank you for your great advice. I plan to work on the various aspects of what I believe caused the breakdown. When I was in the mode so to speak, my thoughts were down the drain. Very negative and fearful. However I am hoping a shift in thought can help with this? When I really think about it I feel like I have manifested the relationship before hence the reason I said ' have to believe' because the proof is in the pudding. I just have to focus on the pudding I want :D . btw are you on the journey or someone who continues to manifest all their desires? I love all the feedback I can get

A shift in thoughts is the only thing ever that can change something. And of course you have manifested the relationship. There is nothing that isn't a reflection of you. And yes, you can't do anything wrong with the pudding. ;D

My profound, but not very helpful answer to that question would be: I'll be always on the journey.
I don't do anything actively to attract someone in form of visualisation, RS and so on. There is a guy I would still love to have contact with, but the most important thing for me right now is my happiness. If the guy comes, fine. If another guy comes, fine. If no one comes for a while, still fine. I'm on this journey for 10 months now. I'm still learning, but I think that I have a pretty good understanding of LoA by now. And right now, I don't even care so much about manifesting desires, but about feeling good.