Sanshi wrote:

Of course it was your creation. After 5 years...wow.

I can tell you why he wasn't there. Because you still ask that question. You still have resistance, you still look for the physical evidence. What did you do with the ex who showed up? You thought about him randomly and then you forget it. You hadn't any thoughts like "I would like to see him again, but I haven't seen him in 5 years. It's so unlikely". It's sooo easy to manifest without resistance. Like you said, it really only takes one happy thought, that's it. But that only works, if you don't think about the opposite afterwards. I think that's the point. You still notice his absence. What I try now is to go more for the feeling than for the manifestation. I think that's the way to go for "bigger" things.

Actually I have seen him in the last 5 years but only periodically and always arranged, I've never just 'bumped' into him like I did last night. I think if my real specific person had turned up last night, I wouldn't have liked it, I would have been caught off guard and not ready. I was totally fine with seeing this ex and didn't mind at all going up and saying hello. I think maybe that could have something to do with it, being ready. It has happened to me before in the past where I get a gut feeling I'm going to see a certain person that day and do. When I get that gut feeling, I don't feel worried about seeing them as in 'oh my gosh, I really don't want to see them...' or nervous or anything, I just feel it and expect it subconsciously but I have no resistance about that person. So you're right about resistance. I think people talk about 'divine timing' but I actually think that's basically when you're totally ready emotionally for something and nearly over it and it comes. No resistance.