So I recently got a new job that has me completely focused on and in the moment. I want to learn everything as quick as possible so I'm extremely focused and not thinking about anything else. I've never let so many hours go by without thinking about my ex...we have been off and on for 10 years. i feel like because I'm not thinking about him I'm letting him go. I already know he's seeing someone else so I get worried. I know im suppose to let the desperation go and live in the moment but I can't help it feel like I'm just giving up....like I'm going further and further away. We are currently friends and I'm always starting contact. So since I'm waiting on him we are talking a lot less. He knows I have a new job, the job I've been waiting for and went to school so long for...so I think he's just giving me space because of that. But in reality I need him more than ever to vent to because some days are hard! I know he's seen a change in me because I don't complain anymore about this new female and because I'm not contacting first. I just feel like my ex is the type of person that out of sight out of mind....I've known him for 11 years, I know him better than anyone!

When I first discovered LOA and Vironica I was obsessed about this other female...constantly looking at her social media....her Instagram was blocked but I would still check it just in case she unblocked it or changed the profile pic. The first week I started controlling the thoughts I wanted to send out to the universe and I stopped obsessing over this female because it was true the more I worried the more I would see or hear them together. So it was a couple of days since I checked her Instagram and I know bad idea but I checked it and she did change her profile picture to her and my ex....but I just exited out of Instagram and went about my day....it felt good! It's been I would say almost 3 weeks that I've discovered LOA and doing my best to follow it and I checked her Instagram and she changed her profile pic to just a pic of herself....It might sound silly but to me I feel like that's a good sign. I mean I would constantly check her social media accounts and she never changes her profile pics regularly...she can go months without changing it.

Feel free to give me advice. I know the answered to everything like don't check her account even if it's been weeks or don't worry because I will get more of what I'm worrying about. But if anybody has advice to help make me feel better? Maybe somebody has been in the same situation as me...what helped you?

Last edited by Neolove2 (8/03/2016 12:56 pm)