PixelPie wrote:

PowerOfLove wrote:

So yesterday I broke NC after a month and a half (I know, I know.. I'm not proud of it ) but my vibrational work did have some effect because for the first time in a long time he was actually receptive to hear from me! I won't repeat details because I don't want to create more of it but its safe to say my current reality hasn't caught up with my spiritual reality yet lol. 

I ended up letting my emotions get the better of me and he got a little annoyed, but then I just got a whole bunch of stuff off my chest and basically showed him some love and compassion (he's not in a good place atm) and it softened things up. I actually felt relief from getting that all out to him. He also told me I am an amazing person (yes I am!) and that I deserve better so I feel I managed to do damage control by the end. We are now back in NC.

I also found out that he is going to be a one hour flight from me when I go on holiday tomorrow! Sigh, I do feel a bit down in the dumps that he's going to be so close to me yet doesn't want to see me (we live in different countries so I never see him).

I know to ignore what it looks like and for the most part I have picked myself up greatly, but I guess I do feel a bit down about:
1. being so close and not being able to see him
2. to see that he's still singing the same tune - bit of a sting to hear again
3. the holiday was a chance to to take my mind off the subject and focus on me but now I know he's moved to a place that's 1 hour away from where I will be, i'm struggling to not think about that
4. i've now delayed my manifestation and set myself back a bit... I've only got myself to blame!

I feel disappointed in myself and can't help but feel I've ruined my manifestation somehow.

Lesson learnt: DON'T break NC (unless its inspired but be honest with yourself about that!)

Sorry guys, just needed to let all that out. 

xox

Nothing is lost!!! ☺ you know what you did wrong so forgive yourself for it and forget it. In fact change it to what you wanted to happen. I don't care what he said to you it doesn't matter! The only thing that matters is what you think he said to you. Do you see what I did. So keep telling the story that you want to happen.

I'll link you to thus too. Because it shows fully what will happen if you only believe in your story and not his or anyone else's
http://laniestevensforum.boardhost.com/viewtopic_mobile.php?id=680

Thank you sooooo much for your response PixelPie  it was exactly what I needed to hear. I love having LOA friends ! That link you posted gave me life - wow! The power of keeping your belief regardless of what you see... Definitely inspiring (although its an unfortunate situation in that example!). I feel much better about things, thank you again <3 xox