I've been trying LOA and I got some good results already . But now I feel stuck. And I know I have to let go of my fear and negative thoughts but I just can't do it now..
I am currently facing my serious Heath issue and my love had the same experience when he was young so I asked him advice treatment wise and how to deal with the situation etc.
he gave me good advice and he even said that if you need some help I always do and wanna hang out then let me know.
So today I asked him what's his plan is but he didn't answer the question so I called him but he didn't pick up and said what you want ? So I said I need some help to someone encourage because my treatment starts next week so I'd like to see you just for a short meet up. And he said I have plans and meeting his friend (girl)to help and the night meeting his close friend ( girl )to have dinner. So I said after the dinner is ok to just meet up for less than 30min . But he said if I can I'll msg you but why you so obsessed with me ? You r annoying me ! You sneaking out on me and just make me upset So I said sorry I just need help I'm not  meant to annoyed you but just need help and the advise you gave me was really make me feel good. But he said whatever and hang up.
After that I realized that I was pushing him so I apologize and I was been selfish and this is not your problem but mine and sorry that I make you feel bad and frustrated . But overall thank you so much you helped me all the time and your kindness too .
Later he texted me that I'm sorry I get frustrated. And he was telling me what he did so far with friend . But he is about to see his close friend ( girl ) so we stop talking .
His close friend she is friend with him over 5years. I remember that when she got dumped from her bf she called him and after that he met her and taking and make her feel good. And they have same hobby too and see each other at least once a week. He told me she is just friend but I have a doubt . They even went holiday together too ( this was before I met him )
I just wonder he could do that thing to her but not when I need it. I'm guessing that they are more closer than ever now. I know I shouldn't think this way but maybe they r in relationship ? I'm just sad because he prioritize her even I need some help. I know this is all I created. 
I want him to care about me but it seemed he doesn't care. How can I stop thinking this way ? If I shift my mind then his mind towards me can shift too ?
I tried to meditate and concentrate on my feeling and try to think positive but I just can't.. Just stuck in negative place ..
(Sorry my English is not good )

Last edited by Mia007 (7/16/2016 4:00 am)