I have gotten back on track with my focus and have been feeling the love for my love. The last week or so I have felt the urge to make contact with him but I feel its not inspired, so I haven't. With recent negative events happening around the world, its just made me feel the love and appreciation for all those that I care for even more and the last couple days has been especially hard for me to not contact. I feel so much love and compassion for him, especially as I've been really feeling the feelings of us together, that its hard to hold myself from physically showing it! 

Now, I have read up on old posts etc and they help me get over the urge for a while but then this feeling appears again. It has become so strong that I feel the need to write on here and get some sense slapped into me! I know that I would like for him to contact me first, I know that I deserve for him to reach out to me, I know that I can energetically contact him (and I do)... I just need some help to get rid of this urge to physically contact him. I do believe currently I hold some resistance in believing he will contact me - so this is probably adding to it. I know I shouldn't be feeling this way.

While I am here I would also like to seek help on one more thing. I have found that I can go for a long time with feeling strong in my beliefs but then after a while my silly old beliefs resurface and poke their nosey head in and make me question my faith. I know to reaffirm my new beliefs and cancel those thoughts, so I do.. Its confusing for me because sometimes I feel I have two personalities lol, one that is so clued up and certain on LOA and the other that believes but allows the old beliefs to cause uncertainty - I notice the second one appears when I'm lower on the EGS scale than usual, so I'm working on that!

Anyway, so I was just wondering if anyone knows of any articles/videos specifically focused on having absolute unwavering faith and knowing your desire will be fulfilled? Like a good kick up the backside to have faith. Now I know there is obviously plenty of stuff out there but I guess I'm looking for something thats specific and a good pick me up/doubt buster for when you're feeling uncertain in that moment. Oh and also about how we should see everything that happens (good or bad) as one step closer to having our desires? Because I know it can be hard to ignore reality when something happens that looks like its in complete opposition to what we want - but of course who are we to know what the Universe has planned :-). I have found it hard to find articles online that specifically target this.

Or if anyone can write an empowering response about those two points that would be even better. Rather than trawl through the net to find many articles, it would really be great to have one reference point to look at that tackle these two points head on for when my silly old beliefs decide to make an appearance.

Thank you!