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You'd think I'd be able to answer this myself by now! Haha but I just don't know exactly how to recognise things that are leading you to your actual desire. Came back from my travels which I did mostly alone and had a great time and saw 111 everyday during it which I've never experienced before. I fell out with my best friend during it though over a music festival (she went, I wasn't able to) and we never reconciled. The first friend I go to meet when I come back home tells me about a cheap music festival in my country that she's going to with her boyfriend (also my good friend) and some other people and invited me along. I took a look through the attending list (its quite a small festival) and see his name (my person) . So is this the first part of the realisation I wonder? Its been a year now, so much has changed in me. Or should I have no expectations like that at all and pretend he isn't going and ignore it as a sign? I know how to act when I'm there for sure (if I should go or perhaps I should remain more of a mystery?), but I just wonder how do you recognise the first parts of the realisation of the desire ?
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And even though my post asks questions and seems anxty, I think I've had enough time to just be able to be calm about him now and just ignore him too. I'm in an accepting/receiving mode
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The most important thing is to control your vibration, not how you act. So if your vibration is in the right place and you ignore him, he will go after you like a puppy, if not you can have the best plan of action ever and it won't happen as you like it to happen.
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I feel that some things are falling into place, my break up with my best friend actually allowed me to realise that I have the confidence and ability to travel a city on my own and make friends alone. When I kept seeing 111 I took it as a sign that I was finally waking up to myself and finding out who I really am for the first time and that I can be happy/in alignment without anyone else (I had no one else with me) and I felt so free and confident! I finally felt comfortable with being alone. When I felt that way, I attracted lovely people and encounters. I think my old best friend was toxic and I was never able to shine with her, she brought me down mentally too often. Now I feel fresh and ready for anything, I think that if I can hold that vibration, he will most definitely be attracted to me...he can't not! I'm now officially the best me my default emotion is happy and content, not sad and angry like before. Travelling for a month on my own definitely gave me that strength I never knew I had. If I don't feel this good closer to the festival though, I won't go.
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But I also don't care as much as I did before about him? In Germany I met men I found more attractive than this person, I still would like him but he's not the only prize...
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ShootingStar wrote:
But I also don't care as much as I did before about him? In Germany I met men I found more attractive than this person, I still would like him but he's not the only prize...
Where did you find this attractive men? Maybe I have to move to another city.
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Berlin ;D my type is tall and blonde haha and I like the mentality I found in a lot of the guys I met there
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ShootingStar wrote:
Berlin ;D my type is tall and blonde haha and I like the mentality I found in a lot of the guys I met there
So did you manifest your holiday job?
Tall and blonde sounds good, I'm in.
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My trip took another course..I got money unexpectedly from family and was able to just be a tourist for a month so no job, but great flat and I had the freedom to explore and relax
I love Berlin <3 going to go back again soon for sure!
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Wow, great. =) Did you discover the bonbon factory? That's the very best memory I have of Berlin.