Anyone who has seen me on here since the beginning, knew how lost I was...   but anyways...  It's been like a week and a half since I last contacted my love... I think that's the longest it's been.   I mean I would go a few days... and then suddenly she would text me... but I've never gone more than maybe 2-3 days without initiating convos in some ways.... I use to do as in the disguise of "checking on her"  but now I realized, I just wanted to stay as close as possible without letting go....  it was almost like a bandaid solution, but instead of actually fixing the problem, I would just have a bandaid over it

But, it's not only that I've went a week and a half without texting her... it's also, I've BARELY thought of her.... I think your mindset is probably the most important thing in this journey...      I've been on this journey since  November... and I had my happy moments.. I haven't really been sad or anything, but I don't think my mindset was always there,  I kept backtracking which made things worse than they were.


I would suggest to other people.. that they should try not to think about their loves... that they shouldn't ask questions like "is it happening"   "am i on the right path"  or any of those other questions....or looking for signs.... because if youre doing that.. your focus is still on them and not on you.