PrettyFlamingo wrote:

holistichealing wrote:

Yes, I am back with my beloved, but I still want to help and I am still learning new things everyday. Blessings to Cherished for teaching me the importance of self love and the journey. Even though I wanted my ex back I wanted to have a relationship with me too. The first thing I started doing was taking care of my body. I started getting back into yoga because it is the one form of exercise I truly enjoy. I started doing hot yoga naked and I just began to love my body. Studies show that when you workout naked you begin to feel confident in your body.

From there I began to do the one thing I always wanted to do, but did not want others people judgment. I cut my hair into a pixie and kept it naturally curly. I felt so much better after doing this, I felt more like me. A lot of the females I know judge how girls wear makeup. They go through the whole process of wearing make up, so I felt weird about the way I prefer wearing makeup. Just a thing of a light foundation, blush, mascara, eyeliner and a natural lip. I like being natural.

When I started doing my make up that way I felt more confident. I also got into weekly facials and skin care. For my wardrobe I love off the shoulder tops and dresses, flowy skirts and dresses, dresses with open backs, mom jeans, high waist denim shorts, bohemian harem pants and cropped sweaters. Very earthy style that actually became a trend in my country. You will never see me without a flower crown. I also got back into singing and dancing, as well as colouring mandala's.

Blessings to Veronica for teaching me the importance of relaxation. Even though I was starting to enjoy myself I was still very anxious. So I ordered Mindful Manifestations by Veronica which taught a lot about relaxation. Then I started doing mindfulness meditation. I truly enjoy it as you start out focusing on your breath until your senses pick up. You begin to connect with everything around you and just let it all be. There is a difference between walking in nature and being with nature. It teaches you all about energy and how we are all connected.

Then I came across twin flames and learned about how we are all in this world carrying pain from childhood or even past lives. The bad habits and phobias we have can also come from a past life. Even our gifts surface from there, these are all things we learned. At first I was so eager about healing both of us, thinking it was the only way. I became anxious again, although we were speaking again, I felt the wall still. So I stepped away and he was upset at first, but we needed space to collect ourselves. I learned about feminine and masculine energy.

How they both served each other, how the spirtual partnership was more important the physical relationship. All because we are all spiritual beings on a human journey. I let go of any leftover attachment. Explored the feminine energy more, learned to really be in tune with myself. At first I felt neautral, I could not feel a thing. I felt out of touch, but when I kept doing mindfulness meditation, loving myself, diving into my heart chakra, my feminine energy awakened. I started to feel calm and peaceful always. A silent happiness that does not need to be loud to be known I am happy. I began sending out love energy to him and healing energy.

I began to understand that I needed to be patient with him too, have faith and as I sunk deeper into myself I felt like I had him with me always. I felt like I had everything. I knew he was already with me. Thus, he left the other woman and realized I was the one for him. Even now I continue loving myself and doing all that I have. Even taken an interest in becoming a vegan since I am not so big on dairy and meat. My body never felt satisfied with it. I even began studying reiki, really getting into the whole energy field. Now that I live in the present I can finally experience the journey.

This is one of, if not the, most uplifting post I have ever read on here.  I am in need of uplifting!!! 

I felt like I really needed everyone to understand my journey since I was kinda general about it at first. It was just that at first I couldn't really find the words for my journey, but now I have and really would love for everyone to enjoy this journey as well. I learned how caught up in my mind I was that I lost touch with family, friends, my beloved and most importantly me. It becomes confusing when  you are caught up in your thoughts. All these fears and worries become apart of your reality and you forget the importance of the present moment.

You have developed to the forum mom.

It's nice to see the contrast between people at the begin of their journey and..I don't want to say that you are at the end of it, but you know what I mean. This thread is the documentation of your growth. I especially love the last paragraph. Patience is what I have to learn right now.

SydneysMommy wrote:

Thanks for always sharing and being so open. Because of you I now understand the twin flame portion. The part where you said when you were back in communication before puling away, did you find it uncomfortable at times or you just knew you had to or because he was still involved with someone else?

As you know me and mind are speaking but the passion has changed into something else and I don't wanna judge it. Maybe it IS the calm I'm missing..the mindful meditation! Thank you for that.

I wasn't uncomfortable, I actually pulled away because he was giving signs of affection and seemed upset over his current relationship. So I pulled away so he can have time think and realize what he was doing.

Inloveandsohappytogether wrote:

You and your story are pretty inspiring. I could virtually picture your journey and how it evolved. I can so resonate with being caught up with the mind.

I love the fact that you went at it one step at a time. I get so confused sometimes because I'm trying to do everything at once but can't be consistent with anything. Reading you was incredibly soothing.

Thank you !

Yes, patience is also very key. Just taking your time so you can truly experience the journey.