alston326 wrote:

HAHA!! You're the one who posted it!! Now heed the message, my dear!!! 

Honestly laughing so hard shows how all over the place my vibe is hahahahaha

It was the same lady's vid on detachment not seen this one actually! Gonna watch it now xxx

Last edited by rosetinted (5/29/2016 6:06 pm)

I have a weird feeling he's returning back to my city in a few days maybe a week.... I've only text him once and know he won't get it if he's camping etc... Until he's back. It was light breezy fine nice.

In the meantime, I have had friends doubting he wants me.. Nice those saying they're SHOCKED he hasn't been in touch... Awesome

But yesterday I was buzzing high! And I'm a little disappointed I didn't hear from him as I had a feeling he would.

Now I'm like ughhhh WHATEVER you're dead to me. Just kidding. I love you. Be with me. Or not. Just... Miss him very much today. I know when I stop missing him that will be great as THEN it's like I already have him again so nothing to be missed. Just feeling today like it's just not working for me maybe. Crazy right I know this stuff.

Anyway I wanna text him or call him the suspense is killing me. I'm partly 'of course he will be in touch why the hell wouldn't he he's probably missed you like crazy'

But also 'girl you will probably never see this man again. 7 years of love and friendship is over. You showed your hand of cards and told him how strongly you felt. You idiot, it's over, oh and he kissed that girl let him go to her'

Though she's nada. I manifested that with my worry.

I'm free all day today so need to tie my hands up again and throw my phone away.

It's been so fun him being away and so elusive. - sarcasm ;)


Love you all X

Hey guys just a little update a little vent and maybe could use some advice and correcting of my vibe.

Been nearly 2 months now since my guy left for his travels. I was doing good feeling good feeling really on the verge of something amazing when he got back.

But he's back. And not in contact with me. I called twice one night about 2 weeks ago. Slipped up and sent a text asking if he hates me? And that I just hope to see him or hear from him soon.

Though I did profess my feelings. Shocked him. We did leave on good terms the night he went away, big hug, a few tears. I feel humiliated he hasn't been in touch, hasn't replied, thinking wow maybe he really does hate me? Maybe this is it and I will never see or hear from him again, just be cruelly and coldly ignored and cut off like my other ex did. I'm so scared of creating that again.

It's so UNLIKE him to just ignore me. He's not cruel or cold. We were such best friends in between our romantic stuff for years. I'm confused. Feel stuck.

I shouldn't contact him again right..

I also want to say alston326 has been SUCH an amazing support that girl is a magic lady and so encouraging, like my spiritual running buddy.

I know I can do this... I'm just confused right now as to.. What next? How will he just suddenly get in touch? My other ex never did in the end.. Maybe this is what people I love do to me? As this is what my mean ex did it just feels so familiar, but it can't be happening again?! Who the hell likes repeat storylines on tv shows.

I do feel I'm letting go. I almost feel these things...

If he does hate me for some reason, is doing what my mean ex did, is being mean and ignoring me and just never wants to see me again... Then this is NOT the soul mate and best friend I've known for 8 years... And I have to rethink everything and beat myself up for driving someone to ignore me again...

Or.. This man is my soulmate, I have to trust in divine timing, something is keeping him away and maybe it's not all I fear, maybe it's for some amazing reason. It will either be him or someone even better for me.

When I read those two I don't feel a sibling stomach anymore, I feel NEUTRAL which is bizarre to me, as I feel like I have to be sending him love constantly to contact me. To break this awful silence and waiting. I'm quite scared.

I will continue my journey, meditating, I think I've been trying too hard. I know I can be happy with or without him now, I just want him chasing after me this time... Not sure if this weird neutral feeling is good or bad.

Lots of love to you all and I hope to crack this code hmmmmm I have a feeling I know all the answers anyway...

I'll post anything I find that helps me also

Sanshi wrote:

Girl, you are a creator, not an observer. At the moment, you do a really good job observing what is and analysing why it is as it is. I can tell you why it is that way and I can tell you why you feel like you already know that story. Because that's the vibration you are emitting and you will experience it again and again until you change that vibration. You can't get anything else if you don't change your vibration. Stop reacting to what is and start imagining what you want into being. Don't blame him, he just reflects your vibration. He can't be different, because you don't allow him to be different. Start to use LoA in your favour and not against you. Sorry to say that, but it's not very surprising that he isn't desperate to get you back (yet). Put in the mental work and you will see the shift.

Nope I hear you and you're right. I think I've been trying to shift my beliefs and shift my vibe and shift my reality, when really maybe the trying is doing the opposite. I think I need to be more energetically still.

If that makes sense.

I'm always looking for 'how' and maybe that's my main problem, it stops me truly creating whatever I want at the moment.

Thank you

Xxx

Sanshi wrote:

rosetinted wrote:

Sanshi wrote:

Girl, you are a creator, not an observer. At the moment, you do a really good job observing what is and analysing why it is as it is. I can tell you why it is that way and I can tell you why you feel like you already know that story. Because that's the vibration you are emitting and you will experience it again and again until you change that vibration. You can't get anything else if you don't change your vibration. Stop reacting to what is and start imagining what you want into being. Don't blame him, he just reflects your vibration. He can't be different, because you don't allow him to be different. Start to use LoA in your favour and not against you. Sorry to say that, but it's not very surprising that he isn't desperate to get you back (yet). Put in the mental work and you will see the shift.

Nope I hear you and you're right. I think I've been trying to shift my beliefs and shift my vibe and shift my reality, when really maybe the trying is doing the opposite. I think I need to be more energetically still.

If that makes sense.

I'm always looking for 'how' and maybe that's my main problem, it stops me truly creating whatever I want at the moment.

Thank you

Xxx

Maybe it would help to let the guy be for a while and manifest little stuff to prove yourself that you don't have to figure out the how? It can be really fun to manifest crazy stuff that you have to attachement to. It raises your vibration and boosts your confidence. What helped me a lot was putting the guy aside for a while and just working on being happy. After a while, I felt that I could go back to working on him and the vibration made such a difference. It was easier to believe, it was easier to feel, it wasn't longer effort but fun.

Don't try too hard. That never works. Play more, make less effort.
 

Yep you're right and that's what I've been feeling actually this was starting to feel like work thanks to my old friends doubt and fear but it should be fun no matter what!

Asking the universe to send me a rainbow today in one form or another, and I have no resistance if it does or doesn't! I think that's the place I need to practice being in.

Neutral is better than fearful.

Thank you for your advice ❤️