So before my love...I was madly in love with a married man. We never pursued anything whatsoever...hell he didn't even know I was crazy about him. I was 18 and he was 32. Surely I figured it was puppy love. I saw him about 8 years ago and we reconnected as friends and have been since. 6 years ago I met my love and never felt such passion as I have before. I know my daughter's father is my boo;)

When my love and I began having issues....so did Richard and his wife. Subsequently they divorced about a month after we broke up.

As we comforted each other...his feelings increased for me but mine decreased. I found myself hurting him in the same way with similar wording as my daughter's father said to me.


I'm super honest and told him I cared but not in a way where I saw a future. I've only wished my daughter's father would say it to me....that way I know I'm only being contacted out of convince rather than form a commitment.

My daughter's father never says..only that the dynamic has changed and he doesn't know what the future holds. Which leaves a person hanging in a way. His actions are there but the passion for me is coming from someone I'm not in love with and tonight I crushed someone's heart.

This is one downside I wasn't expecting. Sigh...how to deal? It's playing in my head because I wonder if the way I feel for Richard is how my boo feels towards me...that he cares but not in love...

It's messing me up a bit.