What a lovely post. Just keep enjoying the small things.

I am so glad you're doing so well with all the positive energy in you, tameraroberts!! 
I've only been here for less than two weeks actually, but this forum honestly is so helpful because of all the insightful and supportive people here.

Hopefully we'll be able to help each other out!
keep up the positive vibe, everything WILL be okay 

tameraroberts wrote:

Piggy720 absolutely I am here if anyone needs my help.  I believe in helping others helps us with our own situations.  We get blessings and it helps me keep my focus on my love.  He will be the last man I will ever love in this life.  He is my soulmate.  If you need texts I am for that also.  During the day can get rough for me.  As that seems to be the times i struggle the most.  have a lovely night and keep positive

I wake anxious all of the time even if I sleep in peace. I think it has to do with my enviroment though.

So this last Friday I had brought Japanze dinner to his mom.  With no intentions of seeing him or reaching out to him.  He lives right next door if you don't read my other posts.  Well the whole week.  I visualized what the event would be like in several ways.  We the exact way I thought he would come.  HE TOTALLY DID.  He sat between me and his mom.  Hanging on our every words.  He teased us both about stuff we were doing.  But when I brought up my trip back home he was silent.  I didn't look at him for at least an hour it seems.  I was so nervous and though I totally remained calm.  Also I thought I had been visualizing really for the past 2 weeks since his mom and I set the date.  Well I did catch him at least once eyeing my ankle.  I had an ankle bracelet on.  I know he was staring at me.  I could feel it.  But he was sly on not getting caught.  He stayed 3 hours til we left.  You need to know, he loves sleep and he works 3 shift for him to give that up you know he wanted to be with me more.  Well I was flying on cloud nine all night.  Then the next day I was down.  My thoughts started turning negative and I totally won't mention more because I know the forces of negative can take over and they are irrational.  Love is so much stronger and so is good.  Well I am posting now because I decided yesterday that I needed to take my boy to the zoo.  A zoo trip I had gone too with my love and my son almost a year ago.  I visualized all day him being with us the entire day.  I also have this loa jewelry chain in my car.  That I made last year.  Visual things help me maintain my focus and really I spend a lot of time in my car.  Often it shifts in the car and all this week especially the end of the week, his birthstone just happens to be in the middle of the little wedding ring.  Note its not always there.  This entire chain is my loa of my life as I am living it.  Also just a couple min I tried to rest from the zoo and I was awoken to seeing his face next to mine.  Saying for the first time ever.  That he loved me and he said my name.  I quickly awoken.  So happy and so full of love. 
What I do need to point out.  All week I had been praying to God and the Universe that I would be strong, confident and full of a lot of love.  I workout at work hard 3 times.  Dancing my tail off.  Tried to eat healthy.  Sleep good and care for my son, my home and my self.  I tried to be complete in everyway.  Totally positive that I am totally amazing in every way.  I ever told the people I work with as I showed them his picture on my phone.  See this is a picture of my boyfriend.  One person tried to say.  But and then I interrupted and said yes that is him.  Isn't he beautiful and so cute and happy.  All these positive thoughts and language I know have led up to him being with me Friday and I know it is soon that we will be really communicating.  I am visualizing his texts and our conversations.  Pray for me.  I am giving my thanks and love to God and the Universe for the loa.   The love in my heart and soul.  The family we have together and the present we are sharing in love, harmony and happiness.  May you have all you are living today.   Here if you need me.