holistichealing wrote:

RollingRock33 wrote:

holistichealing wrote:

Aside from looking up healing meditations, look up sending yourself love to raise your vibration. Also, look up the vibration chart to slowly work your way up from where you are. You will be enjoying this magical and spiritual journey filled with love. If you are depressed you are living in the past, if you are anxious you are living in the future and if you are at peace you are living in the present.

Thank you so much! So her sister texted me, telling me i did hurt her somehow recently. So i texted her (the girl this time), asking if I've wronged her or hurt her in any way, and she told me, "yup. Not talking to you. Im having a good day so leave me the **** alone"

I replied, "
Okay. If thats whatll make you happy then ill do that.  I am SO sorry for hurting you. **** i hate this feeling. Like, ive never felt so bad since Ashburn (where i met her last time i found i fucked up so badly)

In respecting your wishes. But please... please let me know what ive done sometime after you come back home from the beach. This pain
is almost unnaturally heart-tearing"

Left it at that. Good day eh?

So I'm not sure what to do about the next step here. I already broke NC after one day because of what her sister sent me

I see, well you should really try to pull yourself out of that painful rut. It is what screws you up, speaking from experience. My anxiety and fears got in the way of my relationships because I let it. Right now, my family and I are really messed up. They see me as a bad person, but it is because I let my fears and anxiety get the best of me. So I am trying to heal that situation.

Where in the same boat as far as the family thing goes. Im so sorry


Let me ask you. Do you think i made the right move by saying,"ill respect your decision and let you be", in that text?

I want her back and for some reason i feel hopefuk right now

But i apprently did something yo hurt her (apprently i do that kind of thing a lot, and it only happens to her. I really think she's just overly angered by incredibly littlr things. In fact i know she is, so she just needs tougher skin - i offered to give someone something important to me to give them hope because they were really depressed [and a little high] and my girl got angry with mr because apparently id do something so generous for people other than her. She got angry because it made her feel unimportant i guess...)

But yeah. At least it shows she still cares about me if shes hurt by something i apparently did. And if i dont see what i did then it must be something like the thing above. Im very careful with my words and actions so yeah. Its that kind of situation im sure. So it shows she is really hurt by what i did or said... ehatever it was. So iy shows she cares about me at least... im sure somewhere deep down she has feelings for me. Idk why i think that though.

But im still upset that i hurt her...

I hope my response to her was adequate

holistichealing wrote:

Yes, your response is fine. Just give her sometime to think. She is mad, but if it was over something small she will realize it and apologize. I know it upsets you, but do not get upset. Especially, since you don't see what you did wrong. Just remind yourself that you are trying to be the best version of yourself as possible and you have a lot of love to give. Do not feel guilty sweet one. Just send her loving healing energy if anything as well as yourself.

Aww thank you so much

I've apologized since then, with AMAZING feeling. I know I shouldn't ask this, I do, but, what happens if she stays prideful, stays hurt, and just stays angry with me and never reaches back out to me? 

If I were in her shoes, I'd see how sincere I'm being. Also if I were in her shoes, I'd see how much it pains me to feel bad that I hurt someone I love.

That's why she's been so distant lately, though, I see...

holistichealing wrote:

RollingRock33 wrote:

holistichealing wrote:

Yes, your response is fine. Just give her sometime to think. She is mad, but if it was over something small she will realize it and apologize. I know it upsets you, but do not get upset. Especially, since you don't see what you did wrong. Just remind yourself that you are trying to be the best version of yourself as possible and you have a lot of love to give. Do not feel guilty sweet one. Just send her loving healing energy if anything as well as yourself.

Aww thank you so much

I've apologized since then, with AMAZING feeling. I know I shouldn't ask this, I do, but, what happens if she stays prideful, stays hurt, and just stays angry with me and never reaches back out to me? 

If I were in her shoes, I'd see how sincere I'm being. Also if I were in her shoes, I'd see how much it pains me to feel bad that I hurt someone I love.

That's why she's been so distant lately, though, I see...

Then imagine her appreciating your efforts rather than worrying that she will stay distant. The question you are asking is a fear and you shouldn't pay mind to it.

WOW you're completely right!! Thank you

(This hasn't happened yet. Just writing it here in the present form) - SHE'S APPRECIATIVE OF HOW SINCERE I'VE BEEN AND REALLY REALLY LOVES ME