Funny story from last night.

Years ago, R logged onto SKYPE on my phone so that the little one could speak with her mother because his phone died that day.  I've never logged it out because for the most part, I forget that it's even there. 

I say for the most part because every once in a while, I have an instance where I'll get a rouge SKYPE call or message from Little One's mother's account. Sometimes, it's the mother sending a message to the Little One, other times, its the Little one typing something or sending a video message. It always makes my heart skip a beat and when I get a rouge call, my heart pounds because I know I can't answer it. 

I've asked several of my techie friends about what could cause this as I don't use the app myself, so I never have it open.  It doesn't happen all the time, either. No one can explain it. 

The last time that this happened, I went ahead and opened the app to watch the video that was sent. It was very sweet and at the time, I also noticed that a certain someone was missing from his SKYPE contact list. I believe they were having problems at the time because he was so attentive to me.

Last night, I was chatting with someone and all of a sudden a SKYPE message pops up and shortly after was a SKYPE call. Ignored both, but can't help but wonder what the universe was trying to tell me since the last time it happened was May... and I know what was going on about that time. 

Strange happening. I've been doing my RS for a few weeks.  I've also started the Superman game a week ago and have been focusing on the positivity of things. I feel pretty good. 

I had a conversation with a friend yesterday about my situation with R and I said that I've heard some stories about how he no longer appears happy in his situation and that someone spotted her acting very angry the other night, texting and then slamming her phone down.  I told her that my gut tells me that he's finally realized that "easy" isn't always good and staying with someone out of guilt makes everyone unhappy in the end.  I said that the last time I saw him, the way he looked at me was wistful and then I was told by a co-worker that he practically skipped away from my office (all I did was offer him a 2nd (he initiated the first one) hug that day). I mentioned to her that I realized that we had been going through this cycle thing for the better part of a year. We would talk, get real friendly and start to borederline flirt (I won't full out flirt as it's not apprropriate to do with someone in a relationship) and I could feel his energy coming towards me...and then something would happen in HER family and he would step back. It's happened twice already this year... four months apart. Well, we're back at the 4 month mark and I'm hearing rumors of unhappiness and such (which is new), so I said to her that I expect him to be chasing me again (with the daily messages through our game app, liking things on facebook, long conversations that he initates)very soon. I admit that I went home and didn't think much more of our conversation. 

Last night, I get a text from a guy who I met a few months ago... with the same first name. It's funny.  I met him and we've gone out a time or two. I like him as a person and even joked that I would try to not hold his first name against him.  However, I was never physically attracted to him (To be honest, I have not been physically attracted to anyone since R... it's like my sex drive shut off), so when I stopped hearing from him, I wasn't bothered.  I checked my phone after I got his message... and it's been a month and a half since I last heard from him.

When I realized who the text was from, I just laughed. Right name, wrong guy, universe! I will admit that I am wondering why he felt compelled to reach out to me all of a sudden, though.  And why in the heck isn't it the one I want?

The other day I was working out and a man that looked like my guy walked in, but had a wedding ring!  Do you think that is a bad sign of him not being available?

He does have an ex fiance that I think he hangs out with/is in contact with.  I am not sure if they have an on again off again relationship or are just friends. 

I want to meet him again and have him be totally available and her being with someone else.  How do you manifest that?

Baby_r wrote:

Maybe start using his full name instead?

I've been doing that as well.  When I use Lanie's RS method and I call to him, I start with his first name and then add his last.  The date that I put on my calendar, I also wrote his full name. 

I was using whatsapp on my iphone whilst i was walking to the station this morning, and my bag started slipping off my shoulder. So whilst my iphone was still unlocked, i used the hand i was holding the phone to pull my bag over my shoulder. When i looked at my phone after adjusting my bag, my hand somehow typed nothing but "V"!! How random yet amazing is that!! It definitely put a smile on my
Face this morning! 😊