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It's been 6 months of us trying and tonight we just had the biggest argument our of no where with him telling me I'm the worst thing that ever happened to him and he could care less about me.
I have done everything we have been on dates and were doing so well. And today he reminded me of every ugly part of me he hated. I am so crushed right now. I'm so ******* broken. I had ZERO idea this would happen today...and I JUST saw him earlier. And had no indication it was going to happen.
He hung up on me saying he would never apologize. It's the complete opposite of all that's been happening. I want to just die right now.
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That's just it. It back fired in a huge way! No warning no nothing. Things I didn't eveรฑ think we're wrong he kept score. He broke me down into kitty bitty pieces without warning and I was speechless. I cannot stop crying let alone know how to turn it around.
My everything hurts so bad right now.
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Yes I agree with the others, it doesn't matter how this happened, what your only focus needs to be now is realigning. People say all sorts of things from misalignment, and the outcome depends on how you perceive the situation, and whether you move forward in love or fear. You really have to stare moments like these down, and decide that they are the best thing that could have happened. And you know what, in retrospect, you WILL come back and say that this was a pivotal moment for you. It's about changing your perspective, something you have been doing so so well. This is simply a blip on the radar, come back to viewing it as a creator, not a reactor. ๐
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Oooooorrrr...
What if this was the fight that changed everything? What if this was the moment where he realizes that you mean everything to him? What if this was actually THE moment that turns everything around and it had to be this uncomfortable for him to have a huge epiphany?ย
Sometimes things like they're falling apart but they're actually falling together - part of your challenge as a deliberate creator is to not pay attention to what seems to be happening. You're assuming a huge fight is a bad thing, but sometimes a huge fight leads to confessions, heartfelt apologies, declarations and of course reconciliation and doin' the naaaaasssttyyy in the love shackย
Don't be hard on yourself and don't let one event drag all your work down because you're assuming it's a bad thing - for all you know, it's the best thing that could happen and this is when your desire is about to be delivered but your lower vibration as a result of the argument will make it harder to find your address to drop off the Luuuuurrrvveee package...
If I were you I would repeat to myself : what if this is a good thing ? ย Because really...what if?ย
You know there is a reason in movies they have that anti climatic moment where everything goes ape-****.. That is actually the beginning of the unfolding.
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Thanks you all. The trouble is the huge burden of knowing that his entire outlook on me is so negative based still on his perspective of what someone else did. Not to mention he said this in front of someone who could share to others. It was nasty. My true only course of action from a realistic stand point is to block him and ignore the hell out of him.
Today's father's day and I don't even want to go. He said he wouldn't for if he didn't see her....REALLY?!?!?! HE CANNOT BE SERIOUS. Child support can make him stressed..how ex can too but still taking it out on me and Sydney while he has his oldest right now is horrible.
From a loa perspective I feel let down all the way. How can you realign? What he has done is shown me he doesn't want to be a part of either of our lives guys....I'm supposed to accept that right, after all free will states he can do what he wants.
I am totally not trying to have a pity party. But I'm done.. crushed! I'm looking at my kid with tears in my eyes because she is worth her father loving her so damn much he would die if he didn't see her. And I'm not dome punching bag.
Give me a reason why someone could believe he is worth it? When this is how he acts. If this is the pivotal moment he is going to be crushed. Her birthdays coming up too. I'm forced to see him. I'm do done with being hurt and him over exaggerating about me. He is delusional with what he says. Majority is what HE decided is reality. He believes nothing that true because he isn't able to see real events. He has his own negative loa and it's stronger than mine!
How on earth am I supposed to loa through this? I am seriously looking for advice on what to do.
Because I'm getting ready to go into no contact indefinitely
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Here's a reason- you are always a vibrations match to what you are attracting. There has to be SOMETHING a little off in your field that has allowed this to come into your experience. But truly- none of that matters. You can change the entire situation if you can come back to CREATING instead of REACTING.. See how they both have the same letters?!
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Cherished wrote:
Here's a reason- you are always a vibrations match to what you are attracting. There has to be SOMETHING a little off in your field that has allowed this to come into your experience. But truly- none of that matters. You can change the entire situation if you can come back to CREATING instead of REACTING.. See how they both have the same letters?!
Well I already reacted. I defended myself and still nothing. He still told me he didn't care,still brought up the past, still said no one changes, still didn't address all the wrongs he assumed and I was still left looking like a helpless idiot. In the past I would've been at his house but instead I took it. Do you know how special I am...my kid is? I'm so sick and tired of that being over looking by his irrational bull ****. It's enough! I can realign I'm sure. But I'm dying internally knowing that this is my current reality. Just a week ago I was on cloud nine...now here, again. I won't react another day. I have him on call block now and it will remain there until I get an inversion apology. If I don't like the apologies it remains.
I promise you I did not create this...who created being tormented? I had no issues with him. The entire day I spent at a water park with my kid...niece and nephew. I met other moms and a man as well. I didn't think of him negative at all. I even saw him to drop off his gift and he was touchy feely and hug and kissy...then 11 hours later I call to see if he was going to be free and I get this! The logic of loa...you create your reality has to be flawed. I been creating harmony.. endless hopeful love, friendship, passion. I had one weak day of missing him in bed. And THIS happens .
If he is worth it he should be the one here...not me. No one should be an emotional punching bag for the sake of being back together right?
I have changed so much..hell you guys see it...he doesn't and he has known me for 6 years.
Before throwing in the towel what would you do.. seriously?!? He should feel like **** not me.
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If you are sure you totally didn't attract this in a bad way, then sit tight and get ready to celebrate your success. Seriously, try to change your perspective as others have suggested. You can turn this into a disaster or one of the best things that ever happened. If you can trust that things are absolutely on track, this will be your reality and you'll soon be posting "woah, this is unbelievable, something amazing happened"
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I am TRYING!! I immediately went from crushed to pissed off especially since it affects my baby girl.
No contact is all I can come up with. And I know that's not out of live for him...but it's out if love for me because no one will make me cry around my kid again. But I can't figure out this one towards him because this was not in the picture.
Any advice on what to do...I mean meditate? Scripting? No contact? How to realign...this was a bad one...like the fight before the break up. I even said to him he was the problem he is trying to break me because he us broken. He has created every fight since HE came back... why cone back to to fight if I'm not worth your time...why call if I'm haggling you.. I don't call, HE calls. I pull him every which way...I NEVER ASK HIM TO DO ANYTHING... it's nuts. I'm being blamed for things I'm not part I f. I'm realistically confused where this has anything to do with me and how I can fix it if I'm blamed for things I'm not part of. Serious I'm at a lost!
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I would recommend to change your focus for a while. Do what you love to do and don't think so much about him. In a few days everything will look a bit better than now. Don't think too much about the fight because you just reinforce the vibration you don't want.
I remember Bashar saying in one of his videos that obstacles are there to test if your new vibration is really what you want. He says something like if you react to the old circumstances differently it means that you have truly changed and your reality will change. If you react to the old circumstances in the old way you have not changed. It's like a safety mechanism: "Do you really want to change your reality? (Y/N)". If you freak out you click the No button.
Another thing that has been already said in slightly different words: You have always a distance between you and your desire until it manifests. When you feel that something threw you back you have the choice to go faithfully in the direction of your goalย furthermore or to stay where you are or to turn back and run in the wrong direction away from your goal. It's like in Cherished's post about Perfectville. So don't give to much importance and focus to this situation. I know it's easy to say that as someone who is not involved but give your best. You can do that.