Thank you very much for this. There are times when I am so good I don't even think about it. But lately the more we speak the more I see him the more I hug him the more he kisses me the more he calls me the more I get anxious that is just taking one day too long. It's getting ready to be the summertime and I have my most fun memories of us in the summertime. We vacation we have long night outside on the patio we eat grilled food we have hot sweaty sex and we wake up in the morning just knowing that at 6 o'clock we can do it all again. I am doing my very best right now that he's going through problems and his own personal life to remember and record what I'm actually doing using the law of attraction. I think this stage is a whole lot harder than when we first broke up. It's like having them in your hands and still knowing it's just not the right time. I know that divine intervention or Divine timing for everything happens in accordance with what supposed to happen when you get yourself back. But I currently feel that I'm almost there. And then here comes another thing in his life that prevents us from being what we can be. I trust that he loves me. I trust that he knows that I'm a good fit for him. I trust that he knows that he can find other people but it won't be the same. But I don't trust right now is that he believes in himself enough to recognize that no matter what he's going through financially or with his ex-wife there's nothing to fear being with me. At night when I'm by myself and I don't see my phone ring it has brought me a little bit back to being sad. But not sad because I don't think it's going to happen said because I want him to be right there so I can tell him it's going to be okay.