It sounds like you have a beautiful love with this person. I definitely know what it's like, as I feel the same kind of connection to my love. When things went sour for us I thought the relationship was a lie as well. But now I constantly remind myself that this connection is REAL. I learned to ignore those outside circumstances because those are lies that manifested from my counter intentions. The love we felt was very much real and true, and we can have that love again.