PixelPie wrote:

Sanshi wrote:

Hey lovely people,

since I have found LoA again 7 months ago I feel much better, even better than before my breakup (but I felt like crap in the last months of my relationship). I'm emotional relatively stable, happy with most of the aspects of my life and I like myself. But I still don't feel so good. I feel neutral most of the time, sometimes I feel happy, sometimes I feel resistance. I want to feel good most of the time and not only when I sing, take a bath or watch a beautiful film. But I have no idea how I do that or what I do to prevent it. I'm very aware of my thoughts all day long and I stop negative selftalk immediatelly. The guy I want to attract is not my focus at the moment and I know that I will get him eventually, so he doesn't cause so much bad feelings. But what else is holding me back? It feels like my normal feelingplace is like a deep channel in the earth and I try to climb up the walls but fall back everytime I try and the harder I try the harder it gets.

It sounds like you are putting too much pressure on yourself. It's ok when you don't feel good. I mean no one can feel good 100 % of the time and that's ok. You seem to thing it's wrong to feel down sometimes and you are fighting it. That's why it seems hard to you at those times. Don't fight the feeling say to yourself it's ok that you don't feel ok at the moment. Take the pressure off yourself by go one feeling at a time back up the happy scale when in those moments of low vibe☺

I don't feel bad. I feel neutral most of the time but I can't feel anything else from where I'm now. I can't feel love, appreciation and it's hard to get in the feeling of the wish fulfilled. The moment I'm happy it gets easy but I need reasons from the outside to have this happy moments and that annoys me. I know that fighting against it just makes it worse but I try to raise my vibration for months now and nothing has really changed.